New years?

aite...

there's about an hour and a half to the end of 2007.

which means another measly year is coming to a start, which is that of 2008.

i start my attachment tmr, which utterly sucks, but last night was a great time spent with friends around a bbq pit and at mt. faber. I'll discuss more about last night when i receive the photos from amy.

So, with that said, another short and sweet post to end the new year.

I'm headed to bed before everyone starts to...

countdown
kiss
hug
laugh
smile
cheer
get wasted
make-out in dark corners
have sexual intercourse

blah blah blah...!

FUCK THE NEW YEAR COMING!

later from the holiday party pooper! out!

x-mas?

So...x-mas is officially over...woopie fucking doo...

I pretty much slept through the whole day today.

Got plastered alone last night. Reason being: depressed!

I ended up drinking 6 large bottles of beer, almost half a bottle of Abolut Kurant Vodka and apparently i finished a whole bottle of shiraz.

Yup..that made me puke 2 times, end up with blurry vision and most importantly, forget!

I completely forgot what happened after the wine. I thought there was still left overs this morning, but apparently it was all gone. I was quite surprised that i finished all that alcohol alone.

Oh well, it was a good night to get crunked and pass x-mas.

Christmas is officially fucking over...now it's time to get passed the whole fucking new year thing. I don't think i can top new years with this years personal x-mas party! Gotta plan something extra special for venture into 2008.

I'm out! peace!

The Grinch

If your a die hard christmas freak and are in the holiday spirit...LEAVE NOW!

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Okay, it's that time of year again that SUCKS!

You can all call me Grinch, if you please!

The Christmas season is always a downer for me and I'll always post something negative about it. I just can't stand the holiday season. Most may know, or not know, that the holiday season brought a lot of hate and anger into me when i was a child, so i guess it kind of stuck with me since then. From a professionals point of view, I'm pretty psychotic about the whole x-mas/new year thing.

Every year, when i was a child, my holiday would have gotten ruined by my parents. They end up fighting and screaming at each other, which left a really negative impact on my life. After the age of about 14, when i stopped celebrating with my family and started hanging out late with friends, x-mas became times of destruction and vandalism. We use to go around and put things on fire, break cars blah blah blah...anything that was unethical and illegal. However, with all the fun and excitement that we had, i was still missing something. I'm sure my friends were too. I think by being unwanted by family, we ended up finding each other and taking out our anger on everyone else. We all needed family or at least someone to be with that was special. No doubt our times together were special, but it's a different feeling...ya feel me?

This year, like many previous years, is gonna be a lone and saddening event. I've planned it all out. I'll be plastering myself at home tmr night, reminiscing about the past, thinking about my present and looking forward to my future. It's gonna be an oh so boring and unexciting night.

Christmas in one word, SUCKS and New Years is just another entry to another rotten year. I can't stand the fact that so many are happy during this time of year. I'm jealous. I'm Envious - it's true and i'm not afraid to admit it. All that gift giving, cheerful faces, loved couples and families, makes me sick that i can't have that. I've never been able to spend a great Christmas in front of a fireplace, have a turkey dinner and get crunked with champagne.

If Santa could ever grant me one wish, it would be able to spend one holiday with someone special. That's all i ask for. Just that one person that could bring joy and happiness into my life. Make this Grinch smile and glow. Most importantly, to make everyone else around me feel envious.

I know this post makes me sound selfish, but isn't everyone entitled wish and want something?

Many people may not understand where I'm coming from, but i know a bunch that do. They all reside back home in Toronto and it's making me miss them more and more! This year is much more heart thorn than any previous year. Why? reason being is that after this year, i may never be able to return home for a visit for at least 5 years. From what i have visioned for myself, i don't see myself returning back due to career opportunities and further education.

Anyways, i don't want to elaborate anymore on the situation and start ruining everyones x-mas and new year spirit and plans.

So...I'll leave with this..

To All...

Clubbers, Alcoholics and Party freaks: Drink Responsible and have fun!
Couples: Be sensible and practice safe sex aite?
Families: Make sure not to neglect the holiday seasons!
Singles: Open a bottle of jacks or vodka and drink yourselves away!

oh and if your like me, that hates almost everything about the whole holiday season than scream...

FUCK X-MAS AND FUCK NEW YEARS...WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK, BITCHES!

BBQ

BBQ Announcement...

*To DHM0405A, this barbeque is a session for getting together for us to reminisce and hang out*



Alan is planning a Barbeque at his place and I'll be helping out with the guest list.

The details are as follows:

Date: 30th of December 2007, Sunday
Time: 1830 hours - 2300 hours
Venue: 27 Balmoral Park
Damage: >$20 (with rebate, pending on budget)

and this is the list of ppl that have been contacted.

1. Richie - OK
2. Amanda - Tentative
3. Suzanna - OK
4. Elliott - Tentative
5. Xiu Min - Tentative
6. Amy - No response - OK
7. Eunice - Not OK, shift work until 2300 hrs
8. Thomas - Not OK, has work to do
9. Jude - Tentative
10. Cao Yan - No reponse
11. John - No reponse

We both hope that everyone can come. it will be a night of fun, drinks and food. It will also be an amazing way to catch up on the past, present and future.

For more details and rsvps, feel free to contact myself or alan.

Peace y'all..hope you can come out and make it!

Add on!

Here is a add on to the last post..


i've uploaded a PDF file that i received from an e-mail from Mat.

It's about the new cab fare hikes. This is an Official Press Release Fact Sheet from ComfortDelgro

Download the file here:

http://www.zshare.net/download/577211863da73f/

Anyways, after reading it, most of the things from the last post is correct.

There was something QUITE funny from this release. They said that they increased the city area surcharge from S$1.00 to S$3.00 to encourage drivers to pick up people from the City Area. That's complete BS because lots of people are still stuck without cabs.

AND

The 35% increase for the peak hour surcharge is outrages. It's like having to pay night charges in the day. Pathetic excuse to earn more money if you ask me.

So during the hours of 5pm to 8pm, you have to pay the city surcharge of S$3.00 PLUS an additional 35% increase of the total meter.

After 8pm, which shouldn't be considered peak hour anymore, is still affected by the additional fares. Does that make sense to anyone? I'm surely lost for words. It's like after 5pm til the next morning at 6am, cabs are just a glamorous item to travel with. What if your rushing and short on cash? what if you happened to leave your atm card at home and only have limited cash on you? Just What IF?

argh..i'm out! peace!

Cab Fare Hikes!

[SONG] Omarion and Bow Wow - Girlfriend Official Remix

Alright, i'm vexed!

Cab fares in Singapore have sky rocketed!

I didn't think they were going to increase prices by two-folds. I assumed that it would be a few cents, but i was so wrong, and i found out the hard way tonight.

Here's what the cab driver told me:

1) Start fare is S$2.80
2) every 310km is a S$0.20 cent jump..it used to be S$0.10 cents for every 210km (see the difference?)
3) Boarding from the Central Business District (CBD area) is an additional S$3.00 (from 5pm to 12pm)
4) Peak hour charge is now 35% of total cab fare...meaning S$10.00 will have an additional S$3.50 on top AND it starts when the time passes 5:00pm. So this means, that it's like getting charged early midnight charges in the day.
5) On-Call charges are around S$3.50 to S$4.00

so..here's some math for you all.

On Call Charge, CBD boarding, Peak Hour and Meter Start time...totals about S$12.00 before even releasing the foot off the break. (4+2.80+3.00+35% = ALOT OF FUCKING MONEY)

This currently applies to new comfort cabs and i think city cabs as well. All cabs will eventually change to this system, it just depends on time. This change is due to maintenance fees of the new cabs (kia sonata) and the price hikes on fuel/gas/petrol/oil!

So, i was in the cab with amanda, cussing and swearing in my heart with the new additional charges. I usually have to pay about S$12-S$14 bucks to reach home from town...today it racked up to S$18.20. That's not bad considering i didn't have the peak hour surcharge and the on-call charge on top.

This system is a HUGE change. I will defiantly think more than twice to take a cab from now on. The safest bet is to take a cab before 5 and not within the CBD area. It's horrific i tell you! Your eyes will literally bulge out when you see your total fare on the meter!

Chansey told me it was suppose to be about a 49% increase to what we normally pay. I didn't believe her cuz i wasn't effected when i took a cab in the day. I total see where she was going with it when i saw the meter jump like a little bitch today. My heart was falling out with my wallet that didn't have much cash left inside.

they should have a new slogan or something...eg. "take a cab if your born in royalty" or "if your families loaded, hop on"... seriously you need to be dirt loaded before even considering looking at a cab now. The amount i will pay to reach home with all those charges would have been enough to get me home from Changi Airport back in the day.

Oh and did i mention that it's still a bitch to get a cab? it's like people around me are getting richer, un-aware of the new prices or just plain stupid to be feeding these huge organizations with more money.

I'm vexed, agitated and disturbed with this whole new strategy they have implemented. Whatever happen to 20 cent increases or even 50 cent increases? this is a totally new system and it's about 50% more expensive then ever.

i'm out!

fucking cabs.

exams finishing

YES!!

just 2 more papers to go!

look out for an update on something...not too sure what yet, but soon!

Update on Exams:

Public Relations: went alright i think
Financial Management: A TOTAL BOMB! 100% sure fail!
Organizational Behaviour: I think i did alright.

Last 2 papers are:

International Relations Business and
Hospitality Law

Exams have been mainly theory, which resulted in my hand spazzing during the paper.

it sucked!!

Going back to bed..peace!

Miss World 2007

I just finished watching Miss World 2007 on Channel 5.

Links:

Official Site
Wikipedia


This years show seemed so, boring and unattractive compared to previous years. It seemed that there was no budget to make it grand and their wasn't enough planning to make it spectacular. I was quite disappointed from the start.

I would have imagined, like many previous years, that there would be more performances and more supporters. It was so bland that i almost fell asleep, just waiting for the results. The girls this year, judging by looks, weren't as attractive. I personally loved, Korea, China, USA, Sweden, France, Venezuela, Thailand and Indonesia.

By being adventurous to venture into Sanya China to hold the event, was spectacular. I never knew such a place existed. It looked wonderful. Instead of going to some mainstream country/city, I'm glad that the association had the guts to venture into a area of exoticness and culture. It was quite a surprise to here that it was in China, seriously.

Now on to the main part, the ladies.

- Congratulations to Zi Lin Zhang of PRC for being the winner of Miss World 2007



Though her English isn't the greatest, the effort put in was great. I think she deserved the win, no doubt. However, i think there was a bit of a biasness when deciding due to the Beijing Olympics coming up in 2008. I'm quite happy she won, its marks a new era for china and chinese people around. Congrats again!

- INDONESIA - Kamidia RADISTI



Indonesia was one of the TOP beauties of the night (My opinion). I think if she brushed up on her talks, she could have done a lot better. She was really nervous and the answers given were not really enticing. However, the competition isn't all about looks right? lol.

- KOREA - Eun-Ju CHO



Korea, to me, was the cutest of them all. Her body out surpasses many of the contestants as well. I wish she would have made it into the top 3 though. It would be nice to see more of her around. I'm sure the Korea media is gonna eat her up, so no frets, if your into Koreans and all, your sure to see her in some Korean magazines or something, in the near future.

- THAILAND - Kanokkorn JAICHUEN



What a Beaut. Thailand's representative this year was beautiful. I thought initially she was from Japan or something. Just wonderful.

- VENEZUELA - Claudia Paola SUREZ FERNANDEZ




Just look at that body..nuff said right? lol!

- FRANCE - Rachel LEGRAIN-TRAPANI



The French seem to know how to really present themselves. I thought she presented herself the best throughout the night. She was exquisite.

Disappointments

- SPAIN - Natalia ZABALA ARROYO



If her spoken segments did better, i may have actually noticed her postitively. I thought she could have done a lot better if she worked harder.

- SINGAPORE - Roshni Kaur SOIN



Singapore was way too shy and showed lack of confidence. I thought that she could have done a lot better. She was a big disappointment to me.

- CANADA - Sara GHULAM



I guess because i'm Canadian i expected a lot more from Canada. Over the years, Canada was sending representatives with brains and beauty. This year was a complete flop. Its just sad. I'm quite speechless.


There is my mini-synopses of the whole thing. Everything stated was of opinion and should not be taken to heart. Your own perspectives are yours to keep. Take a look at the links at the top of the page for more details and photos of the contestants.

Peace!

blah!

Shayne Ward - A Better Man

Exams are coming up next week so updating will be suspended for a good 9 days or so.

I'm totally utterly screwed for Financial Management and probably Hospitality Law. I'm quite sure the rest of the subjects will be passes - barely!

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On another note..

Ytd our class went to the Siloso Beach Resort. The layout of the resort was, in one word, messy! The lobby was smaller than my house and the area wasn't fully covered, making it hard to get around with the rain.

The rooms were small, but nicely decorated. I LOVED the suite which comes with a private jacuzzi and a connecting door to the top platform - Wonderful! Also, the pool uses spring water in the pool, which looks wonderful (photo below)

All in all, i wouldn't recommended anyone to stay therep personally, but if your looking for a weekend get-a-way in singapore then what the heck? right? haha!

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I've FINALLY passed a bit of my bad luck streak, though my financial problems are well...still problems!!

FUCK!

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Photos....



This is what chansey did to me....!!!!!!!!!!



This is suppose to be a pussy with a clit..the picture didn't come out that well =) (it's actually a bent arm with a finger at the top)



This looks like a better picture, with added pubic hair haha (with a bent knee)

Financial Crisis!

My dad is officially the worst and most irresponsible father in the world! Enough said!

It's been a sweet 2 months now, since he promised to send me money for my school fees. Until this date, i have yet to receive anything in the thousands.

Because of the financial delays and the lack of responsibilities to support his one and only son, i am now, financially big in debts.

I owe...

Singtel: $258.00
Starhub Internet: $196.00
Friends totallying: $270.00

The headaches and stress this man is putting me through is endless. There's always something new with this guy that i just can't seem to understand. As a father, he was never there for me nor was he there financially. However, when he agreed to send me overseas to study, you would imagine that he grew up and started to care for his son. Well NNNNNOOOOO, that's the complete opposite of what's happening.

He can still go shop like a freak, plan trips to australia and southeast asia and have the guts to ask me which phone i want and if i wanted to join them on their trip. How thoughtful right? wrong.. i would have thought he would have started saving his earnings and shit for me to continue my studies and not to worry about anything financially.

PUHLEASE!

this is not the shit i need. I just need MONEY...the greens, the ching ching, the denaro, the benjamins blah blah blah..you get my point.

As a care giver in the future, i would never put my children in a position i couldn't handle. I wouldn't want them to worry about anything that shouldn't. I know how it feels, and it's simple to write it down, but deep down, there's just way more to it.

I could tell you ALL the shit my dad put me through as a child, but there just wouldn't be enough time to, in fact, there wouldn't be enough space on this blog either. My mom is the only person i can depend on and it's no wonder i use to be so much closer to her in the past.

Right now, i don't need any of them. I just need their money. I know it's cruel to say, but being raised within a western society and having been developed through their cultures, it's just what we do. It's our right of passage in lame terms.

My dad is putting me in a position that i don't know how to account for. I REALLY REALLY thought he changed when he started trying to get closer to me. I guess i was utterly wrong and that he has actually worsened in my eyes. He is irresponsible, hard headed, stubborn and a mess..all bundled nicely to a big ball of shit!!!!!

I've always wanted to be someone else when i was growing up, now i just wish i had another father!

vexed all the way! out!

Stolen Time

I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to post about cultural differences. However, with the lack of time to think through the material and actually getting down to writing, i'm just short of time.

Exams are in 2 weeks and my project work is coming to a due date soon time. I can't wait til all is over and i can actually put some thought and creativity into my blog posts.

This week has been hell, besides the fact of being sick, the stress level is slowly rising while the days are coming slowly to an end. I can't really focus. I watch movies and heroes (tv series) to pass time and relax before doing anything that will crack my brain. I need all the time to self relax and enjoy before i totally go insane.

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Anyways, on a brighter note. Here are 2 pictures that i find quite amusing!



Pizza Hut meatballs and chicken drumlet..left over from lunch and this is what my creative mind came up with =P haha



THE MOST INTERESTING AD i've even seen!! it was from some shoe ad in a magazine..i think the shoe was pony.

Alright i'm off to work..take care y'all

peace!

Heroes

I've just recently started watching the Heroes TV drama series.



one word describes the whole thing: AMAZING!

I'm not the biggest fan of American drama series' but this one really blew my mind. I'm now not only addicted to the WHOLE series, I've started implementing what Hiro nakamura 's dialog - that's how obsessed i am.

Official Heroes Website
Wikipedia

This TV series is sheer intelligence. The way the they put the characters and plot together was amazing. I do have some problems with the directing, but i believe it has to do with the time constraints between each episode. If you like something with a mystery and are into the whole super power or comic thing, then i STRONGLY advise you to watch this series.

Here are some links for you to watch online:

Heroes Online Cucirca
Watch Heroes Online
Watch Heroes Online.net

For additional links, search google, with 'heroes online'

My favorite character is no doubt, Hiro Nakamura played by Masi Oka. Besides having the cutesiest and most innocent character, Masi, was able to portray his character to be it's full potential. He has the ability to switch his character from someone honest to someone that is fearless. In my view, Masi's character made the whole series funny.

Now into season 2, a new character has emerged. Elle Bishop played by Kristen Bell. I love the way she can play 'evil.' After watching Kristen in Gossip Girl and Veronica Mars, it is clearly noticeable that she has reached a new level with her acting. It is unknowing that with her great looks and sweet face, that she could look and act so evil. I was quite impressed.

Other great characters to look our for...

Claire Bennet played by Hayden Panettiere
Peter Petrelli played by Milo Ventimiglia

If you haven't watched heroes, i really advise you to =)

I'm still trying to get my big post up, so this is just a little something something for y'all to vibe with first.

PROJECTS !!

ARGH!!

project work is killer, nuff said y'all!

no time to blog. no time to chill. no time to relax!

this post is just to let you all know, I'm still ALIVE for Christ sakes.

Gotta get back to work.

I'll be back up and posting by Saturday..hopefully!

Oh ya one more things...This whole project phase is really taking a toll on the brain. It's draining every millimeter of my energy and sanity that i have! god dammit! this year is the toughest cuz it's the last major project and we gotta make it good. ya know, to leave a mark with the trainers and all..at least that's what i think!

fuck it!

i'm out!

peace!

Justin Lo

Justin Lo..Juk Teen (Canto name)

I just got Justin Lo's new CD JTV. Amazing! I love his work!

I'm not the biggest pop fan, however, i do appreciate talent. Justin Lo is probably one of the few new artists' in the HK music scene that can pull a vocal range and give a unique flavor in his music.

JTV, like his other 2 albums, has yet again astound me.

Look him up for more info.

Wikipedia
AsianFanatics

After reading the biography on Wiki, i came to asking myself, what would i do to pursue my dreams?

He left Yahoo! to follow his dream as a singer. I mean, what courage! Knowing that the industry itself is a hard battle to enter, he still gave everything up in the States to return to HK to find his love - music! I'm glad he left, and made such a name for himself in the scene.

I believe strongly that Justin will soon become the next Hacken Lee, Andy Lau or any other great music artist that has survived so long in HK. It's difficult. The music industry is a killer industry to remain in. However, i believe he can do it!

So congrats on the new album Justin. It's great!

Look out for other great new artists' in the HK music scene...Janice Vidal, Jill Vidal, Stephy Tang, Theresa Fu and Charles Ying.

Though i believe Janice Vidal is the only female that compares to Justin at the moment, the rest are worth checking out if your into the whole canto pop thing.

...i wonder if Janice and Justin will ever come out with duet together...that would be great!

Look out for a huge post i've been wanting to touch on for awhile now...cultural differences coming soon...just need the time to think and write =)

i'm out..peace!

A New Leaf

[SONG] Jay-Z ft. Notorious BIG - Hustle (Remix)

I've been extremely busy these days, so i won't be able to update as frequent as possible.

I'm not sure if many have you noticed, but I've been changing my writing patterns on my blog. Instead of giving dull boring posts about what's going on in my life, i try to incorporate events from around (example from: newspapers, television or what whatever i come across) i find important. Also, i try to add in my views, perspectives, thoughts and well whatever i find interesting.

The writing style has changed to suite the general public. I didn't wanna just list out an issue or daily rant. I wanna be able to hit an issue with people, give my insights on the issue and give the reader a different perspective on things. I hope its working by the way.

I will still talk about what's going on in my life, movie reviews and such but it will be written in a way that i hope everyone will enjoy reading. Rather than just saying, i went to a movie with blah blah blah and ended up doing this and that during the weekend. It's too boring, dull and unreadable.

If you have any suggestions, comments or problems, feel free to address them in the tag board or in the comments section. Thanks!

Richie

Trishaw Story

[SONG] timbaland presents onerepublic - apologize

A story in Singapore has stirred up a frenzy which involve 3 British tourists and a 67 yr old trishaw driver.

The news hit around the 1st of November when the 1 of the British tourist posted the video of 'the slowest taxi in SE Asia' on youtube.

Since then, Mr. Davis (the one who posted the video) has replied with an apology. However, the apology seems to have stirred up more of a frenzy with netizens. Mr. Davis was quoted "Looking back, I think we were insensitive. But bullies, no." There was no apology made directly to Mr. Lee, the 67 year old trishaw driver, which is why netizens are furious.

To read up more visit these links: Read the comments to see how people around the world feel!

The guardian
Trishaw uncle unaware of insults - The New Paper
Tourist bullies incur Net wrath - The New Paper
UK PAPER CARRIES REPORT - The New Paper
The Daily mail UK
Asia One
A Bloggers Views

These blogs, websites and forums are just a few of what you can find off google. People of Singapore and the world want a answer for their actions and they demand that they apologize with sincerity.

From my point of view, these tourists are a sad case. Having to ride 3 full grown men on a trishaw and not get paid is just unethical. He's 67 yrs of age and the 3 men just took advantage. The uncle asked for S$10.00 for their ride. What's 10 bucks converted back to pounds? It's really nothing for these guys. But did they think what 10 dollars is for this trishaw uncle? Probably not!

let's do the math: 10 bucks in singapore can get him at least 3 meals or 10 packs of coffee.

These tourists have no respect for the elderly. They exhibited this by posting a video of how shameful they can be. Posting this video for the world shows that they have no sense of compassion. The way they treated him, laughing and swearing, showed the world that there are still people out there that have no respect for others. It's saddening to hear that their are people walking the streets with a mentality that they are above all.

Did Mr Davis and company think that no one would view their video on youtube?
Did they think that it was a laughing joke?
Could this have been an act of racial discrimination?
Was it really that funny?


To think that someone would take a 67 yr old guy as a joke when he is just trying to earn an honest living is just pathetic. Though many trishaw owners are rude, cheaters and inconsiderate, they don't deserve to be made fun of publicly. Have you wondered why they react they do when no one takes their trishaw? It's probably because of the cheap and fast alternatives they can get with taxis and public transportation. We can't blame them. They are around because the trishaw acts as a tourist attraction for Singapore. Removing them will only take away a piece of Singapore's history.

The way citizens and netizens have come together to share their thoughts and inputs on the situation have really made me think, 'wow, their are still people willing to gather up and fight for what's right!' It's amazing that a story that stirred up Singaporeans have reached the masses almost instantly. This is the power of the internet and free flow information. Many believe that if this wasn't a fight amongst different races that it wouldn't have stirred up such a riot. I'm sure racial matters have nothing to do with the case.

A note to Mr. Davis and friends...

i hope you've learned your lesson. You not only stirred up a frenzy in the virtual world, but you've also started a riot amongst the masses. By displaying your actions on the video then posting it to the world, has made an embarrassment to the human race. It portrays that, in our world and society, there is still such immaturity and dis-respectfulness. No matter if the acts portrayed were out of a joke, racial hate or irrational decisions, it doesn't give you the right to have posted or film such a video. It's just outright shameful! By not paying for services rendered is just unethical. Would you go to a restaurant and not pay for the food served? probably not, since you'd be labeled as criminals, such as this case here. If the tables were turned, i'm sure you'd and your friends would be furious. I really do hope that a more sincere and direct apology is made soon!

Enough venting..I'm out!

peace!

A new life is born!

God.

He has brought new life into this world.

Congratulations to Rai and Anjula for having a healthy great looking daughter, Anishka Rania Rai.

After an excruciating 8hrs of labor, Anishka was brought into this world.

As it is deepavali, we were invited to Rai's house for food, chit chat and the main attraction, to see the new baby girl! Happy Deepavali to all!

She's probably the only Indian girl with a chinese godfather and mother. I being the father of course and Liang being the mother haha.

Her delicate head and soft skin was a great feeling to touch. I love the feeling of carrying a baby in my arms, even though i'm scared, the feeling is just great! i've always wanted to have children and since i don't have any yet, i'll just carry other peoples babies =)

Anishka possesses many of Rai's features. The forehead, the lengthy arms and legs, the nose and most importantly, the body hair. She's so cute and she's so adorable. You can't imagine how i felt when i saw her. It brought back memories and feelings of seeing my friends babies, back home in Toronto. It was a feeling i can't describe, a feeling that was lost for awhile. I'm glad to have been able to share the moment with Rai. Besides being nervous on the way, i was picturing so many images of my godson in Toronto and my friends babies back home. For a second there, i thought i deleted them from my memory. Thank god it's still there!

After being brought into this world after 10 days, she seems to be doing just fine. It's amazing how innocent and cute babies looks. They are amazed by the finest things in life and it's makes me wonder how we, as adults, forget the simple stuff around us. Example, gazing into the sky and dreaming or just being amazed by the amount of colors around us. Have you thought about where these things came from? probably not, but i'm sure a baby child is wondering, even though it may seem that they aren't.

Children are a blessing and people should cherish them, especially men. Many guys have a mindset of having the wife stay home and the men go out to work. Why can't it be the other way around? Why can't guys take care of their children and cherish the time they have? it's a rare find, which comes to my point, many men don't cherish what they have. Why you say? well exhaustion from work, stress, lack of interest in their kids and the so called 'duties' that wives perform, are just a few examples. Though you may see a loving father with their kids, but how much love are they really putting in? is it just a mere image on a time to time basis or is it as frequent as it's suppose to be? who really knows? not i!

going out of point a bit here but...

It's a proven fact that many men are turned off from their wives after they see their first child's birth. but why? is it disgusting to them? do they see something that the rest don't? could it be they see a child's head when the wife is crowning?

The answer is simple, many men don't understand the process of birth, they don't appreciate it and they feel that their wives are no longer appealing.

let me tell you this.

It takes a real 'man' to understand what birth is and the pain that your wives have to go through. It takes a real 'man' to cherish what they have and to show eternal love to their spouse.

As a man, i can understand the perspectives men have, it's grown in us. Blame it on testosterone if you may. However, i've taken the time to understand women, read up on pregnancies and learn about women in general. Though i may seem like some pervert that talks a lot of shit, i am actually the total opposite, well at least i think i am! I can understand what women go through, it's just too bad i won't be able to experience the process myself. I have always wanted to feel how it would be like to give birth. It's that process of giving birth that, if men understood, divorce rates and lust would probably be reduced drastically if not become obsolete.

Well, that's enough for now, before i press on someone's toes! These are my thoughts and views so don't take it to heart. We all have our own perspectives on life. This is just a mere souls thoughts! if you wanna discuss this or other issues..let me know =) i'm always available to talk!

Anyhoo, enough of the ranting and shit. I know you wanna see pictures now. If you have questions about my views, experiences or perspectives, feel free to contact me personally =)

Pix...



10 day old Anishka Rania Rai!



The presence of innocence!



Adorably sweet!



I with Anishka! [I wonder when my turn will come lol =) ]



Rai - It's amazing to see a different man! He's become a whole new person, literally! Such a fatherly figure lol!



Anishka and Paulina!



Elliott, Paulina and Anishka!



Aisah and Anishka!


Peace y'all! hope you enjoyed the pix!

Personality test

[SONG] Chris Brown - Get At Ya

Did this test a few days back..Orginally taken from Xiumin's blog!

Click here for link to test



click for a larger image.


It's quite true, give it a try!

It's amazing how people can come up with these tests/quizzes that actually give you a result that makes sense. This is not like those stupid quizzes that you get from some unreliable source. At least this one throws some perspectives at you.

After doing this quiz, i was impressed by the result. i'm proud to say about 95% of the results are true, to me at least.

So what are you waiting around here for? go ahead...give it a shot!

Inspirations

I just finished watching...



Just like all inspirational films that are released, this movie made it's point very clearly.

Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson and Xzibit, really portrayed their roles wonderfully.

After watching this movie, it made me want to accomplish something big in life. Showing people around me that i'm not the useless one. My dad use to call me a failure when i was a child, which kind of still follows me. However, i know that deep down, i don't need him and that his words have made me a stronger person. Currently, he is changing his ways as well. Growing up with him was difficult but now i'm happy to say that the changes have helped change things alittle - positively. Though i still have great hate for him, i'm not hard headed enough to not notice these changes.

If there were more of these inspirational films during my time, i think i would have gone a different route. Probably a more prosperous one. I'm not complaining about my life now, i'm satisfied. I'm just stating that i may be somewhere else, doing something different - who knows. Films like this reach to a community that many may not understand. Fortunately i do! Growing up in communities, though not as bad as the ones movies portray, i got my fair share of insightful views. I'm glad and very thankful i came from a background that made me who i am. If it wasn't for the conditions i was raised, who knows who i would have become. I'd probably be like some nerdy, mommy's boy, crying everyday. Who knows!

Though i didn't need a film to catch my attention about my life, i'm glad they exist. In the societies we live in now, it's getting harder and harder to realize what's going on. Many try to cover-up a vision because they can't seem to get a hold of their own. They brainwash people to help them gain an upper hand. An example of this would be, having young teens get conned into selling drugs and eventually joining in on gang activities. I'd know because similar situations like this have happened to me and i followed.

What can we do?

we may think nothing, but to some, 1 person is enough to make a difference in someone's life. This is what these movies are showing us. Taking reality and sharing it with people around the world. Showing us, that somewhere, somehow, someone is willing to help others and show them a path that they deserve.

It's good to know that in a changing and gradually increasing uncaring society there is still someone willing to help people in need. Everyone is concerned with themselves! this is probably why i love to help people with personal issues - become their ears and to share my experiences with them. Though it may not seem like i'm the type to be serious, when in need of it, i can be a very serious and over mature individual.

It's movies like, gridiron gang, that changes perspectives about the world. It just depends if you are willing to learn from it, apply it and use it!

If you have yet to watch Gridiron Gang, i strongly suggest you go out and rent it now!

some other inspirational films/documentaries to watch or keep note of: Freedom Writers, Dangerous Minds, Remember the Titans, The Diary of Anne Frank and Invincible.

Facebook Revolution

What is it with these teens revolutionizing the world?

How is it they can make such a great thing available to the whole world?

Where do they get inspired?

How? how? how?

If only i was so lucky.

Facebook, the new way we connect and interact with people, from all around the world. Friendster, it's time to say goodbye.

It's amazing how this guy came about facebook. Read the link below to find out the whole story. I wish i was as clever, dedicated and creative as Mark Zuckerberg.

Link for history: facebook history on wikipedia

I've been a member of facebook for about 6 months now. I'm still very into the whole site. What makes it so great? really, it just gives me something to do online. Being able to add over thousands of applications and unlimited photo albums, really makes the site interactive. The applications are a great way to pass-time or annoy people with.

The amazing thing that i love about facebook is that, i get to stay connected with friends i haven't seen in over 5 yrs, find long lost childhood friends and maintain those newly made friendships. Furthermore, being able to find and meet new people online has never become easier. With the neat 'poke' feature, you can grab someone's attention and if they wish to 'poke' you back, you know that there's a chance for the both of you to be online friends.

My favorite applications are the iLIKE app and the Flixster app. Being able to display my favorite music artists to displaying my favorite movies, i'm able to share my interests with the rest of the community. These 2 apps also implement quizzes and surveys to make the application more interesting and more interactive.

The groups option in facebook is also a very neat and fun way to connect with people. Grouping with people that share the same interests as you has never become easier. There are thousands of groups that you can join and millions of people around the world to interact with. A great way to share thoughts and meet new people i would say.

Facebook is definitely the new way to stay connected. Friendster has shown an improvement to their site, but it still hasn't reached the level of facebook. By implementing chinese readily text, higher photo upload limits, groups and fan options its showing the world that they are still around and won't be easily defeated!

However, the great thing about friendster is that you can view more profiles without having a private setting, whereas, facebook limits a lot of profiles; making it harder to find friends or meet people. Friendster is still around for the asian community but it's reputation is slowly dying. I hope friendster finds a way to keep running. It will be sad to see everyone leave.

Don't forget MySpace.com. This site is still overpopulated by americans but it's still a great site to talk about. The great thing that MySpace.com has over facebook and friendster is the file sharing options. Being able to post MP3s and such online for everyone to share is a great option that may get someone in trouble, someday, with all the illegal download issues revolving around the world.

Facebook has revolutionized the way we stay connected. it's your choice to follow which online community site you wanna stick with. In my perspective, stick with what your comfortable with for now, but be ready to switch when the rest of the world does.

Surface

[SONG] Jay-Z, BIG, & Faith Evans - Had a Dream (Brotherhood Remix)

I was introduced to a product in my International Business Relations Class.

The product: Microsoft Surface

Official page link: http://www.microsoft.com/surface/
Video link: http://link.brightcove.com/services/player/bcpid932579976?bclid=932553050&bctid=933742930

So, i was thinking about this product while i was watching television and looking at my table. I thought to myself, is this product gonna be the next generation? will it really help us make things easier and is it stable enough to handle the things it's suppose to?

BUT most importantly...how secure is it?

Microsoft is known to produce products that are, well, 'full of loop holes' so to say. I trust that the product, in time, will defiantly be a great advantage to our lives but with all the backdoors and in-security in the internet world, many may be reluctant to use it. I know i would defiantly be reluctant to use it , in it's initial stages.

It's already so easy to steal passwords, credit card info and whatever personal details on your pc from the internet. What makes the surface so secure? I hope Microsoft has a way to go around this and make surface much more secure. If not, i believe many of the techies out there would feel more secure with the traditional methods.

The Microsoft surface is no doubt the next generation to the advancement of technology and the way we live, but it's too soon. With people always finding ways to crack products from multi-national corporations and such, it will defiantly be a hot targeted product. Who's to know if our credit card numbers are secure? Even at home, making online purchases, is a high risk, but people still do it. Why? Convenience! this is why surface will not flop on the market.

It is cool that we can makes payments by placing our cards on a table, read memory cards, view photos and files and such, without having to actually use a PC/laptop. However, it still goes back to my initial question...How safe is it? It's even more unsafe with surface when we don't need a signature for verification. Plus, anyone with the brains and resources to start making fake cards for purchases can no doubt do a lot of damage. At least with online purchases, people still have to enter a CVX number to verify and proof of identity for collection. Though it may seem like minimal security, it's better than nothing, rather than just placing our card on a table, verify and go!

We all know hackers and virus' will be around, but how can we minimize the activity and keep our personal details and files secure? Whoever finds away to make the internet secure and free of harm, will not doubt, turn the world around. Until then, happy surfing!

Microsoft surface - will defiantly be a big hit, just for how long and when?

Bored!

Finally got to catch Mr. Woodcock and Resident Evil: Extinction ytd!!

Woodcock = not bad...quite funny at parts.

Extinction = GREAT action throughout the film. Though the beginning was a tad draggy, the action and fighting really made up for it! i just had to ask myself..how many miras were in the show? and how come a girl in a dessert, fighting and sweating, can still look so good? weird if ya ask me...

anyhoo..

things seem to be going well...school sucks as usual and the semester seems to be zooming by. Tests and project stuff are just slamming and it's coming out of no where. Soon there will be no time for anything anymore.

I can't wait til december though. I hope i can go somewhere for vacation. Malaysia? Beijing? Taiwan? hm..i really really wanna head out to taiwan though. At least i can say i traveled to most places in asia. Beijing would be good too..cheaper on one part and i get to see liang and her friends. hm...decisions decisions..

i'm out...gonna go become the couch potato i use to be =) peace!

Forever 19

Liang Liang aka Forever 19 aka sweet liang aka ah 68 (lol) aka my sister!

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has just left singapore to head home to china, where she will embark on her journey to a career and furthering her studies.

It's just hard to say goodbye. The last time she left was so much easier thinking that she was gonna come back for good. However, now that i know she won't be back for along time, i just can't bear with the thought. I was so shocked when i saw her leave...i really wished it was a reality show and she'd re-appear once again! the laughter we had leaving the airport made me forget for awhile, but being alone at home..it really made me think!

Things are gonna go back to how they were and life is gonna get dull once again. No one to really talk to or just call up for the sake of talking. Lonely nights alone at home starring in front of the television with a packet of food is how i will spend my weekends. The feeling of calling liang to come out for coffee or just to come over is gone!

There is so much i wanted to tell liang before she left. Things that i couldn't say in front of others , but i didn't get the chance to do so. I wanted to tell her how much she meant to me, how much i will miss her, tell her how i would feel without her here next to me...but most importantly how much i love her and the impact she made on my life!!


Liang if you read this i just want you to know that you will never be forgotten!! i love you so much and i wish that the plans you had previously would have sticked! however, i know why you made the decisions you did and i can only wish you all the best! I can't be greedy and ask you to change everything to stay, that's just too selfish and that's not who i am. I really hope that you do come visit and i will try my best to come and see you as well. Just know that this chubby boy is still here and i will always be a phone call away...anytime of the day!! It was so hard to hold in my tears at the airport, but i succeeded! i didn't want to put more pressure on you and i didn't want you to see me breakdown. There is just so many things i wanna tell you, but i won't have the chance! i regret not talking to you earlier but i guess it's better this way, so it won't be as hard as it already is. Writing this post has brought me a lot of pain and tears already and i just wish that you are able to read this when you get back so you know how i really feel. I know sometimes i don't really show my feelings but i hope you know the reasons behind it! I LOVE YOU LIANG LIANG! come back and visit! May everything work out the way you want it and i wish you all the best for your future career and future happiness.

This is has to be one of the hardest post for me to finish! tears running down my cheeks are making me wanna burst out and scream!

i gotta go! take care! peace!

update of week!

[SONG] LS3 - Ooh Mami

Not much to update...here are some visuals to let you have a hint of what Liang and I have been up to the past last week or so and some from eunices' b-day party.

Yes, lack of sleep and spending time at home have been given up to play and eat..and i mean really EAT!!

Enjoy the pix and the music...peace y'all!



The Pose I Miss @ TCC!



Bored @ TCC!



Pillow Fight @ Eunices' House!



I Won!! haha!



Pretending to be a sleep...oh man, look at that triple chin!!



I and Villies @ Superstar!



Cheers y'all!!



I and Paulina @ Superstar!




Chansey, Elliott, Liang, Thomas, Alan and I (at the back being the only 1 to act dumb lol) @ Swissotel Merchant Court for dinner!



I, Liang and Alan @ TCC after SMC dinner!



Liang and I @ TCC!



Tali ban? haha! Ellenborough Market Cafe @ Swissotel Merchant Court!



Alan, Eunice, Thomas, Elliott, Liang, I and Chansey @ TCC!



Bored! lol!



*ahem* we're suppose to act asleep!!!! not make funny faces..aiyo!



Mat doesn't like to look @ the camera with me in it...*so sad* haha!

That's it for now...i'll upload more pix when i got the time and shit!

peace!

Liang's Return

[Song] D-Ground - Feelin You

So Liang returned on sunday morning @ around 5:45am.

After we picked her up and went back to my place, the days are never empty with things to do.

First off, Sunday night. We, as in I and Liang, headed to west ave 8 for dinner with, Thomas, Elliott, Paulina and Alan. After which, Elliott, Thomas and Alan stayed over the night. Too bad it ended early with Liang and Alan heading to bed early!!!

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Day 2, Monday. After school, I went to Little India with Thomas and Aisah to have dinner @ Banana Leaf, for a school project. There we met up with Rai and his wife. We interviewed Anjula (rai's wife) about the cultures of India.

Might i add, Banana Leaf is a great place to try out some authentic North and South Indian Cuisine. I have some pix of the food, but i'm too lazy as of now to upload them. Maybe i'll do so in the next post =)

After dinner, we headed to town to meet up with Elliott and Liang. We went to NYDC for desserts and then made our way to Boat Quay to check out Vincent's new joint. After which, Elliott, Liang and I headed to Cineleisure for a karaoke session @ K-Box. That lasted until about 4:30am or so. Got to bed @ about 6:30am and i still had to head to school. Argh!!

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As for today, it was a great and fun day. Xiumin, Amy, Susanna, Liang, Eunice, Chansey, Nicholas, Alan, Elliott, Paulina, Wan Ling, Thomas and I went to steamboat (yet again lol) It was great! just to be with the old gang again was fun.

THX to Nicholas' dad for preparing that special sweet and sour chili crab (?) It was great! down that shit with a beer and the taste was like WHOA! amazing! the crab was so juicy and tender and the sauce was just superb.

After, we headed to our usual dessert place after steamboat, Ah Chew Desserts! oh man, the mango sago, though different then the HK ones, is always a pleasure having after such a hearty meal. Just a great way to finish the meal.

On top of that, we headed to the Bugis Arcade to play some games. It was fun considering that i haven't played such new and advanced games in such a long time!

and now...i'm here telling you the stories of our last 3 days.

There are more scheduled days ahead..like clubbing, more dinners and meeting up with some old classmates.

Cheers y'all!!

talk?

since monday, i've been yearning to talk to someone. I just needed someone to talk to..to get my mind off things, ya know?

ever since i've came to singapore, i never really 'talk' to anyone. Liang is probably the only person i'm comfortable talking about issues and problems with, but i'm still holding back. I just can't find anyone to hold a decent conversation with. Someone that can relate to me and understand what i'm saying. I miss the days when maggie, stella, wanda, ken, karman and vivian were just a phone call or a drive away.

Is it because many of my friends now didn't come from the same background/situation/conditions as i did? Growing up in an environment much different then theirs?

In a way, i think this is one of the reasons. I know their are some people willing to listen, but can they really help me? Can they relate my issues and problems to their lives? Most likely not. I don't want to swarm them with problems they can't help me solve. Many people come to me for problem solving and i can help because i can relate. I've seen much things from the streets of toronto and experienced, not through just myself but my friends as well, many valuable and life learnt teachings. And i love sharing these stories, theories and teachings with people. It's a great way to communicate and learn from each other!

I'm not trying to get all cocky and shit but it's the truth.

All i want is someone that i'm able to call anytime of the day, cuss, bitch and rant to. If that's not possible, then just someone to talk and joke with - to pass time. I mean there are some that i can talk to and laugh with over the phone, but how many are willing to talk for an hour or 2 or 3 or 4? how many can withstand it? how many are willing to answer a phone call at 4am?

I know i may seem selfish by wanting this and that, but isn't everyone entitled to 'want' something and yearn for something? Am i not allowed to have a friend around the corner to hear me out and just stick by me and listen without saying a word til i'm done?

There are so many people on this planet and it just seems that i can never really find the right one. Why is this so? I mean i've got great friends who are always there, but i just need 1 friend to jump the next level with me. I'm not saying the people around me are not worthy of this or anything, i'm just saying that i haven't found the right one yet - the one that i'm utterly comfortable with.

Many of us laugh and joke but how many of us are willing to open up?

It's like the first day of school in shatec in 2005. Many were unwilling to go out and chill after the first day of meeting. However my first day in high school, our whole class hung out at the arcade after school and just fucked around til the evening. I guess this is an example of cultural differences. This is also a great way to portray, how many of us are willing to open ourselves up when we just met someone and showing the eagerness to become friends or acquaintances.

The western mindset and culture VS. The asian mindset and culture

Both cultures have their pros and cons. So i'm not trying to say that westerns are better than asians or vice-versa!

It's with that said that i may find it difficult to open to some because of cultural reasons, living conditions and background. Although my skin is yellow, my heart is white and this is what really makes a difference.

I'm out peace!

(i hope i didn't offend anyone or anything and if i did, don't take it to heart plz)

HK Update

Quick post.

Sat night was quite fun. Got to hang out with some classmates at Eunice's B-day thingy at K-Box. Sang til 2am and headed to upper thompson for crispy prata. Oh oh oh, were they ever delicious. After that, we headed to Eunice's house to hang out, talk and just slack around. It was a fun time though, even though we were all falling asleep - some accomplished that *ahem* eunice? haha!

Sorry to mat and chansey for disturbing you the whole night muhahahaha!

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Today marked the first day back to school for Higher Diploma in Hotel Management Semester 2.

The books were pricey and some things were done that i felt were childish. I won' t discuss the issue because there really isn't much to say, except, what's done is done, period.

We've been in Shatec for so long, so there isn't much excitement for the first day of school or anything. I guess there's just more dreading and cussing in the morning when everyone needs to get to class.

anyhoo...

Here are a some pix...



T-B: I, Janice, Mat, Eunice, Amanda, Jerlyn, Douglas, Jessica and Chansey @ K-Box for Eunice's B-day!



Normal Pic haha!



I in Guangzhou..I'm sad cuz i was cheated into going by my dad!



Michaelangelo? This swimming in a chinese restaurant in Guangzhou...i don't know if it's edible though lol!



HK Scenaric Pic!



Initial D Replica @ the HK Int'l Airport!



Some Chinese Words on the Street!



I and Vivian @ Causeway Bay...My most happiest and memorable part of the whole trip was to see her!!! it's been like 3 yrs since we've last met...it was just amazing! I've known her since i was 16 or 17 and she's always been like the sister i've never had!



Being Dumb!



My Dad and I @ Causeway Bay

! Do we look alike? I put this up for all of you to have a glimpse of what i most probably will look like 30 yrs down the road. That's just sad!!

I haven't taken a picture with my dad in years and i only did so because Vivian asked me to. If not, i wouldn't have had such a huge smile on my face, looking all happy and shit! For that split second, i think i made that old man happy. who knows...oh well..! whatever!

that's all for now..peace!