This WeeK!

okay let's see here...hm...alrighty i'll start with...

Sat: got piss drunk at Superstar KTV..damn i really needed that (if u read my last post) i felt damn good the next day...like i had a fucking 100kg weight taken off my shoulder's but sad to say it didn't really last long enough...

Sun: went to frances' house for dinner...she cooked up szechaun food..MMMMM it was SO good and DAMN DAMN spicy haha! i loved it..the feeling of sweating ur ass off when u eat is so so shiok (shiok = wicked/good etc.)



doesn't look spicy eh? hehe well ur way way off...damn!



this was oh so good! i want more!! haha!



enjoying...L-R: Me, Amanda, Jessica, Amy, Lea and Zi Jing!



After the meal...*burp* L-R: John, Jessica, Zi Jing, Amy, Amanda, Me and Frances!

Mon: FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! the WORST time i ever had...u all know i don't like to hold grudges or hate on ppl...but this is...*speechless*...i had to go back to school for banquet..the SFT (which is in lame-terms my senior) is a fucking blur idoiotic bitch! she knows nothing what so ever and me and honey had to do everything..literally! damn just thinking back about that day is making me all vexed...i won't say much except...fuck u felicia!! muhahaha...

Tues: after work i went SHOPPING teehee..it's been so LONG since i used a card haha! i bought a pair of classic new balance shoes...looks like edison chan's one in intial D...so now my feet can look like him muahahaha...anyways..after went to raffles city's timberland...bought 2 t-shirts @ 49 nett...finally i got some new shirts i can wear on the weekends...but it seems like there isn't really a use cuz, well i wear my fucking uniform 6 days a week now haha!

Wed: went to ...it was a good experience...got to see alot of countries foods and see some ice sculpting and fruit carvings...me. honey and jessica went a bit late so there wasn't much to see...overall though we got to eat alot of free food..muhahaha that's right...FREE!!! it was interesting to walk around and just look at the cultures and 'hotel' related items! there were shit loads of Shatec students haha..almost every corner u turn lol! <--i found out today in foyer 1 and 2 (at the expo where the event is being held) were the culinary and pastries displays..dammit i missed it..oh well i guess i can wait til 2008..haha! Thurs...Today: my aunt smsed me out of the blue saying she was gonna arrive in SG tonight..i was like uh ... haha! so i lounged..went to rosette/sha villa to find some friends for awhile..then headed to orchard to 'window' shop..but that didn't happen cuz i walked out with a bottle of <- Issey Miyake L'Eau D'Issey Pour Homme Eau de Toilette Spray hehe..i just love it...*sniff sniff* mmm...! around 8 i went to find my aunt...we were in 2 different sections of chinatown and it took us an hour to find each other...so i actually saw her at 9:30 lol! we went for supper and talked a bit then i came home..i should be meeting here on sunday before she goes back home...it feels so nice to see a family member again lol! --well that's my week..i'll update again soon--peace! .. as promised..pix of the zoo and rosette... if the pix look a bit weird, it's cuz i had to re-size them to fit the blog skin...sorry! Zoo...







Rosette pix of table side service...



lobster bisque made by liang...



Caesar Salad made by yuri...



Black pepper steak by Elliott

depression...

i've hit yet another stage of depression..!

i REALLY REALLY REALLY don't wanna be writing this stuff in my blog but i don't know where else to turn to...i don't wanna start blabbing everything to my friends..i mean there's no use..it's all gonna be the same answer, what can they really do besides console me? can they make this stage of sadness go away? the answer's probably not! so i'll just stick to what i do best...keeping it deep down inside and just put on a happy smile when i'm with them...

just a word of advice though...keeping ur shit bottled up isn't really a healthy thing to do..i should follow my own advice shouldn't I? oh well...i guess i'm just a hypocrite...lol!

anyways..down to the real point of depression...

i guess i'm just not happy...it's the same old thing..loneliness...! i wish i could find someone i could converse, joke, hang and just be there..! i want someone that i can just hold til the sunrises and when the sunsets...! is it that hard to find someone? for me YES! for others it may come as easy as riding a bicycle for them!
i hate staying up alone and thinking how would life be if i had someone to share it with right now..i hate the fact i wake up alone without any schedule to meet a loved one...i hate the fact that i have no one to keep me up at night on the telephone...i'm just jealous of what couples get to do! i want that joy of being kept up til the break of dawn...i want what they have ... PERIOD!!!!
i have a friend...he thinks it's not that important to find a girlfriend or a soul mate at his age, he's 18 or 19 can't rmb..anyways..i kind of admire his thinking at times..i mean why bother urself with some skank ass bitch that's gonna use u for money..on the other hand what if u could find that special someone that will make ur life filled with joy and happiness? there are ups and downs to the situation but all i can say from experience is that...trying to find someone u can be with is a great way of learning about life, ppl and the way the world spins! without these learning ur gonna stay in a world of innocence and won't mature to what the modern world thinks...!
anyways back to my story...the fact of being single can be great don't get me wrong..i mean i'm not 'desperate' to find someone, though i may pursue myself as i am cuz i take joy at looking at god's creations...take girls...i love looking at 'special' features eg. eyes, lips, legs, ass, curves, cheeks, skin, hair and grooming..by taking these in to consideration, u can find out alot about a girl and u can appreciate what they r doing to matain this kind of look for the ppl around them to see...i mean it isn't easy waking up 2-3 hrs before work to put on make up, shave/wax etc. this is why when i look at girls, i can look into deep details which makes ppl think i'm a pervert or something...but nevermind that..atleast i know deep down inside that i'm not a perv, it's all good for me!

okay okay i'm going off track abit...

just think to urself for 1 min...this is my life right now...
...work/school, eat, sleep, shit, chill, go back to an empty house...
okay..now u may be thinking...almost everyone has the same life style...*wrong*
how many ppl walk home to an empty fucking house? though there are but not many right? yes..i choose to live alone cuz i like the sense of independancy and all but it would be nice to have someone to call and ask how there day was, what they did, did u miss me? all that jibberish..! am i wrong to say? u may think i'm some kind of idiot cuz it may not make sense to u...but if u put some deep thought into it when ur alone on the bus or train...you'll know what the fuck i mean!

anyways...

loneliness is depressin'...showing ur happy is a fucking mission! end of story!

i just need somewhere to rant all this shit out!

by the way...crying at night all alone doesn't really do anything..i know, i've tried! <-- that's right! i cried...i think it takes a real man to admit that he can shed his tears without fear...any fucker who lies about it, isn't being true and worst of all, it shows insensitivity towards trival matters!

i'm out man..i'm tired and this shit is fucking getting me all vexed up! i'll blog some other fucked up things that's going on in my head next time!
peace!

ZoO

...went to the ZOO ytd haha! it was FUN FUN FUN!!! me, jessica, amy and frances went to the zoo in the day and we saw lots of cool animals...some shitting in front of us, some pissing and some even FUCKING!!! hahaha animals having sex is such an amusement! hahaha! after john and jasmine came to join us to the Night Safari! it kind of sucked cuz it was raining and u can't really see anything! i mean like i can understand the point that it's suppose to be dark and stuff but a bit more lights would be much better...overall the trip was fun and interesting...i mean the zoo in canada have the animals all locked up in a steel cage and the animals here are let free to roam around! i'll have some pix of the zoo up for y'all. shortly when i have time to get them from frances.

let's see...oh yes today at work..
it wasn't that busy so i took the oppoetunity to practice my 'people' skills hahaha...i now have more confidence in promoting wines and all..haha! i sold 1 bottle of red wine and 4 glasses of the promo wine we have at Petals! it was kind of tiring cuz i had to walk back and forth and kind of 'follow-up' on the customers who bought wine..i DON'T have to do this..but it makes the experience bettter right? haha i hope so lol!

anyways i'm off to bed...i have a FULL shift cuz i need to make up for the day i skipped work to go for steamboat hahaha....8am - 11pm...i'm a DEAD man sniff sniff!

take care peace!

Venting!

what a good day!!

first off: went to rosette today for dinner (another shatec restaurant, which i will be attached to soon)...anywyas...me, eunice, john, jessica, alan and janice went and well me and alan ordered all the table side service stuff..which basically means...prepare caesar salad in front of you.guest, flambe lobster bisque soup and flambe the black pepper steak! the only thing we didn't order was the crepe suzette...damn, i kinda regret lol! <---it was a GOOD day and a GOOD experience to see what lies ahead for me! Yuri did the caesar salad, liang did the lobster bisque and elliott did the black pepper steak...GOOD JOB GUYS...IT WAS GREAT...SERIOUS!!

...after...me and alan waited for liang at the 7-11 around the corner...then we joined shaun, vu, yuri, and grace for a drink at the Kopitiam...DAMN DAMN DAMN!! who would have known we had SO much shit to vent out! i mean we ranted and ranted about everything and everyone lol...well mosdtly about the ppl in out school haha! if it didn't start to rain...i think we'd still be there bitchin' our lungs out! ... it was a good night...it kind of joined the A and B class together...!
it's always good to know more friends..right? Right!!

well i'm drinking my beer, havin' a smoke so i'm off to watch some tv! haha! peace y'all...til next time..!

STEAMBOAT!!

muhahahaha...didn't go to work today...WHY U ASK??
well let me tell u see...this is what happened...

i went for STRAMBOAT..hehe!! i was SUPPOSE to work mid-shift today...but i really really really really wanted to go for steamboat!! so, me, rai, shalini, amanda, jessica, john, alex, zi jing and jeanie went to bugis for steamboat, after they finished work of coarse! ... WAS IT WORTH IT U SAY??? HELL YA!!!!!! it was good going out w/ almost the whole petals crew for dinner, too bad sarah, brandon and kerine couldn't make it! i mean i DID spend 23 dollars for my MC and i have to do a 8hr make up BUT the time spent to get to know some new ppl was all worth it! i ate until i wanted to puke...let's just say it felt like eating a whole cow to urself and u needed a tow truck to tow u around! haha!

anyways..gotta sleep...morning shift tmr @ 8:15am...argh!
peace!!

SiaN!

...what a week! tmr's another day for a week of FREE FUCKING LABOUR!!! lol! i mean damn...the school should pay us an incentive or transport fees or something, rather then giving us a staff meal that's UNEDIBLE and SO FUCKING SHITTY!!!! damn ppl r so smart to get bloody students to work for free in their restaurants!! argh..i wish i was smart enough to have even thought about an idea like that!!

anyways!!!!! went to Sembawang w/ liang and peggy to chill! nothing special..we spent like 90 bucks on LUNCH!!!! who the hell pays that much for lunch? lol and it was at DELIFRANCE...out of all places lol! only 3 idiots would! haha! kidding!

well i'm off to bed y'all got morning shift tmr...sian!
peace!

w00t w00t!!

...today was a GOOD GOOD day!! muhahahaha

first...a table of 4 women came in! they were very friendly and fun to talk with...we cracked jokes and all making work SO SO SO much more fun!! they ordered a bottle of red wine...by the time the meal ended some of them were quite buzzed...atleast that's what it looked like lol! FOR SOME ODD REASON...THEY GOT MY PHONE NUMBER!!!! (thx kerine) lol! they gave it back though BUT i don't know if they saved it on their cells...hm...! lol

secondly!!! a table of 3 came in...2 guests were from new zealand and the other was a local! they were quite unpleased with some of the staff but they were quite happy with for some reason lol..! they're in the service industry themselves and they said we should pay more attention to female patrons..! i guess cuz most of us are still new and still a bit nervous when we do service so sometimes we may forget or oversee this basic procedure of serving female guests first...ANYWAYS...
i got a 10 dollar tip from them muhahahaha!
i treated kerine and sarah to cake cuz kerine was my waitress for the night and sarah..well sarah's juat a pig..hahaha kidding kidding!! she was the headwaitress so ya..my 'boss' for the day haha!

anyways i'm out..peace!

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finally!! i have a day off...6 days of free-labour a week is killer! i mean if we got an incentive to do this attachment for shatec, everyone would have a different perspective on the whole idea! YES! it's good for the training and all, but it's expensive to pay for the travel to get there! i mean 1 day i use about 3 to 4 dollars on transport! on the brightside though...we get a free meal, BUT BUT BUT the meals SUCK NUTS!!! lol!

anyways..lastnight was our 'gathering' night...this means every sat. night we will be going down to superstar to talk shit, drink and sing! since we don't see each other for 6 days straight and this attachment has to go on for 3 months so this is the only time we may be able to meet and chill!
it was nice to see everyone again lastnight and boy oh boy were there stories to tell...hahaha!

i'll blog again next time...peace y'all...