slacked out!

I've been super lazy recently! can't seem to focus on the tasks at hand.

I can't..

wake up for school
focus on projects
focus on studying

all i feel like doing is having fun, relaxing and just forgetting about everything!

I seriously need to re-think my strategy and get my life back on track. I have the highest demerit points in class and i don't show up atleast once a week.

argh...can't seem to concentrate on anything right now. i'm super stressed!!

i'm blogging from Piper's Pie @ Bukit TImah, cuz the Raffles City outlet closed because of a change of management. So..ya, came to help mrs. lau with her computer problems as well.

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I've uploaded the Bintan pix to my facebook and imagestation, so go check em out if ya want. the imagestation link is on the right hand panel. I will try to take out my fav pix and post em here, when i have the time and the willingness to get off my lazy ass to do it =)

some interesting vids i found on youtube..enjoy!



Yellow Fever



my crazy asian mother



why asian men have trouble dating (watch the responses on the main youtube site, it's interesting!

That's all for now y'all...peace!

Bintan

Just got back from Bintan, Indonesia.

I'll post pix and details when i get all the pictures.

for now, peace!

old friend!

got a msg from a very good and old friend, Wanda.

she just graduated from the Vancouver Film School (VFS). I was so happy to hear from her on facebook. We use to talk about everything, from problems to happy times. Since moving here, i haven't seen her in about 3 yrs and to think it's been so long, saddens me. Though we do have our occasional phone calls, it's just not the same.

Memories like, picking her up for dinner, talking in the car and smoking, going for jitz, movies and whatever, all just came back and it just well, overwhelmed me.

I'm so proud of her. seeing some of her work really brought tears to my eyes and made me so happy. To think, we never knew what we wanted to do with our lives, and now, being able to accomplish something, really brings joy.

To Wanda, I LOVE YOU, with all my heart and soul! I'm proud of you and your accomplishments. Remember, i'm always here for ya so give me a ring or better yet, get on a plane and come to Singapore, haha lol!

Here is some of her work..



Final project!

introvert vs. extrovert

[Song] Lucky (from MTB4) - Pushing Beauty

Webster's Dictionary

introvert

Noun

1. (psychology) a person who tends to shrink from social contacts and to become preoccupied with their own thoughts.

extrovert

Noun

1. (psychology) a person concerned more with practical realities than with inner thoughts and feelings.

http://www.dictionary.com

introvert

noun
1. a shy person.
2. Psychology. a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings (opposed to extrovert).
3. Zoology. a part that is or can be introverted.
–adjective
4. Psychology. marked by introversion.
–verb (used with object)
5. to turn inward: to introvert one's anger.
6. Psychology. to direct (the mind, one's interest, etc.) partly to things within the self.
7. Anatomy, Zoology. to turn (a hollow, cylindrical structure) in on itself; invaginate.

extrovert

–noun
1. an outgoing, gregarious person.
2. Psychology. a person characterized by extroversion; a person concerned primarily with the physical and social environment (opposed to introvert).
–adjective
3. Also, ex·tro·vert·ed. Psychology. marked by extroversion.
–verb (used with object)
4. Psychology. to direct (the mind, one's interest, etc.) outward or to things outside the self.

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I believe i'm a mix of both.

I've always been an extrovert. I always take peoples energy and use it to my advantage. Making not only myself happy but, hopefully making the people around me happier as well. I've always been quite sociable and i love the act of interacting with people; it's just in my nature. Many may agree some may not, but that judgment would be based on a majority of perceptions and mentalities.

However, this post is more related to the issues that have been on my mind recently.

Recently, i've been very introvert. I always have been. I like to spend quite times, alone and in private. Perhaps that's the reason i choose to live alone and at times just stay home and relax without disturbance. I believe this state of extreme introverting is the cause of my insomnia. I don't say it, but alot of things are bothering me and are getting on my nerves. It's nothing with the ppl around me, or the things i do on a daily basis. It's more to the past, holding on to something i wanna let go. There are many dark secrets that many don't know, and it will probably stay like that for eternity. I always tell myself over and over:

"never regret your past and look back. Look forward to what i gain for my future."

and

"Take life 1 mile a day, and never think about tmr, as life is too short."

Initially i thought i was just suffering from some kind of medical concern, but after some deep soul searching and thinking, i realized that all the problems lie within myself. There are things that i guess i will never be able to let go, which is normal, but i just need to stay strong and positive and continue my journey of life. This was the path that I chose, the future i'm making for myself and the way i see it is i'm doing the best for myself, my future, my career and my future family. This may sound like i'm a conceded motherfucker, but it's the truth, we all want the best for ourselves and we all do what we do for ourselves. No one can steer us wrong, unless we want them to.

So, you may think i'm a hypocrite, cuz i'm contradicting my values and beliefs. But it's in human nature to have emotional feelings and attachment. These values and beliefs have helped me far beyond your imagination, so what's a little stress and insomnia once and awhile. If i go through a phase 2 to 3 times a year, at least for the rest of the time i'm happy and stress-free.

Now, that i have these issues and problems stated, i feel better. I let myself loose, think about the good and bad times of my past. It not only leavened a whole lot of stress but it made me feel good. Knowing that i control my feelings and thoughts and resolving my personal issues alone, makes me not only feel a sense of accomplishment but it makes me feel stronger and more independent.

Thx for reading this long and tedious post. Sorry if i have bored you. (That's if you've actually took the time out to read it or not lol)

Take care, Peace!

Shocked nerves!

GOD DAMN FUCKING NERVES!!!

they're all shocked up. I haven't slept since 11pm Sunday night. I got 2 hrs of sleep..that's IT!!!!

I've been trying to sleep, on my bed, chair, and even on the living room floor. NOTHING SEEMS TO BE FUCKING WORKING!!

I hope i can get some sleep a bit later on, it's going to be 24hrs in about 3 and a half hrs.

On top of all the insomnia, i gotta put up with all the fucking fires going off in the neighborhood. The smoke is killing my breathing and my eyes. I gotta keep replenishing them every hour or so.

I know it's 'hungry ghost festival' and all, but don't they have special places for these things? i mean really, it is a tad dangerous too, to have open flames everywhere. It was this time last year that the void deck beneath me went on firs and caused my whole unit to turn black.

argh...pissed..how long does this festival end?

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On another note, i'm quite pleased with my accounts test today. I think i can actually PASS accounts this semester lol. Intro. to Accounts was a disaster, so let's hope i can buck up and do well for my Managerial Accounts.

AND

I think i flunked my Macroecons test. The signs all seem so positive haha. Damn, i really need to buck up on the rest of the subjects to cover up my weak ones.

I'm out..gonna go watch dvds (again) and pray i can fall asleep somewhere in my house!!!

peace!

Insomnia

[Song] Anthony - My Girl

I have insomnia right now..

i'm super tired but just can't fall asleep. It's like 8:30am and i'm stuck staring at the television and computer screen. It's been like this all night.

Perhaps, it's all the sleep i've been getting.Who knows! I just know it's a bitch when i can't get comfortable in bed and fall asleep.

Stayed up all night watching Bourne Identity, Bourne Supremacy, New Police Story and God of Cookery. My eyes are sore and i can't get them to stay shut. one word: FUCK!

I watched Legend of Speed starring Ekin Cheng last night. it brought back SO SO SO SO much friggin' memories. I have no idea why, but i got the same feelings as when i watch the young and dangerous series'. Perhaps it's just one of those things. you know what i mean?

anyways, back on topic. This week has been so stressful with the migraine and thinking about the upcoming project submissions. Damn, i feel like i'm falling behind. Schools pretty much in a slump, missing class and fucking up my tests.

I NEED TO BUCK UP ASAP!!

Anyhoo..gonna go and watch another movie to see if i can just fall asleep on my chair from over-drainage of energy lol.

One more thing.

HAPPY B-DAY ALAN! Let me know when your free to meet up yo. May all your wishes come true and i hope you enjoy this one year. Next year will be a bitch, cuz well, besides the obvious of getting older, your also gonna start to slow down haha. trust me on that lol!

Migraine

Dying of a serious migraine. Slept pretty much all day ytd and all day today.

Elliott says "You have spider webs all over yourself" which i agree with. I'm feeling much better now, but i do get the occasional thumps in my head. The meds that the doc gave me are fucking strong. One tablet and in the next 20 min, i'm knocked out for hours.

Couldn't even get up to take a piss this morning, i just held it in and went back to sleep. God dammit! i feel like such a bum. On top of everything, i've missed 2 days of school. I'm missing a lot recently, i gotta get back on track asap!

Anyhoo..

went to watch Knocked Up on Monday with Aisah and Thomas.



FUCKING AMAZING FLICK!! one of the funniest movies i have ever seen!!

The way that they slam and diss each other, really really reminds me of how i and my friends use to talk to each other back home in T.O.

Funny flick, great laughs and a touching story of a fucked up fat guy! Though i was laughing at a lot of the jokes, when the cinema was still quiet, i totally enjoyed myself haha! (I think they didn't get some of the jokes)

I'm out! gonna head to bed now, peace!

Movie Reviews

[Song] Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girl (Remix)

These 3 movies that will be listed below, are movies i've just watched on vcd. I wanted to blog about them, because these movies blew my mind. Amazing story line, acting and as well, casting.

First up, Die Hard 4.0: Live Free or Die Hard.

Starring: Bruce Willis



one word: WHOA!

This movie smoked the shit out of me. Full of action throughout the film and laughter in just the right time. Great cast, story and action! If you haven't watched this yet, then my advice GO OUT AND GET THE DVD OR SOMETHING!

It was great to see Bruce Willis do his shit on screen again. The previous trilogy of Die Hard was amazing. Now with the Die Hard 4.0 added to that collection, it's the best boxset to get!

What i really like about this movie, is the technology they used to incorporate into the story. The tech stuff was great, the action made it better. Sorry folks, i'm a nerd when it comes to computers =) i love tech films. I.E. Hackers and The Net.

MUST WATCH, IF YOU HAVEN'T YET!

Secondly, The Perfect Stranger.

Starring: Bruce Willis and Halle Berry



This movie was a shocker. The story line was wickedly written and very well directed. Halle Berry, was great! As for Bruce, i'd prefer him in a action flick.

This movie was mind-blowing. I don't wanna say much cuz i don't wanna ruin it for you guys. Just take my advice and WATCH IT, especially if you like those semi-thrillers and mystery type flicks.

Lastly, The Number 23.

Starring: Jim Carrey



I was VERY VERY skeptical to watch this movie. Maybe because i couldn't picture jim carrey in a horror movie. But this movie isn't a horror, the poster was deceiving. Actually, it's a mystery, thriller.

WELL WELL written, and Jim Carrey played the part very well. It was a shocking flick as well, but it's one of those movies you wouldn't watch again. Go out and rent it though! it would be worth it. The story line was a tad twisted, but it's what made the movie good i guess.

The creativity in the writing of the script was flawless. The way the writer put everything together was superb. Jim Carrey has put a new perception in me. He isn't just some movie comedian but he's also very very good in thriller movies, depending on what part he's playing though haha!

I'm out peace!