FINALLY

FINALLY!!!!! projects are over! no more stressing! but the worst is yet to come! EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS!

argh..what can i say? i mean that's life right? unless i choose not to study and do well then i can just sleep and slack all day with no potential career oppportunities ahead..so ya better work hard now, relax later hahaha!

anyways...i think our history presentation went quite smooth, though me and alan didn't really know our content haha! thx alot to xiumin for doing the powerpoint! liang, amanda, susu thx for everything in the support!

on to other news...

ytd i went to the gym with thomas, elliott and liang! it was a great workout! it's been like 6 months since i entered a gym so ys i'm pretty much feeling the after effects right now! my whole upper body is sore and i have to squat down half way to was my hair haha! it's so damn painful...like they say... no pain no gain! after we headed to yishun for dinner...i bought a nike bag at $75.00...i love it..plain and simple...just divine!

later i'll be headed shopping with liang, well for me it will be window shopping haha! and hopefully we can find time to head to suba to visit thomas, elliott and jude at work!

gotta go do laundry now so i'm out..peace!

the week

[Song] P. Diddy - I Need A Girl

well friday was another day at home doing projects. Yes! just right after my banquet ops presentation we still had to do project work! dammit! the presentation was so stressing already and yet, as the group leader, i set a meeting on the same day! sorry to the group members cuz well i know none of y'all actually wanted to get together! but atleast we accomplished a bit of work rather then wasting the day! all in all...i'm sorry folks! no hard feelings!

saturday was a fucking rough as day! we had a team building thing for the IMF training. It was a scavenger hunt which was meant to bond the people i'm attached with in the hotel together. I"ll be attached to the Grand Copthrone Waterfront Hotel. it's a 4 star hotel but i'm so not happy about it! i wanted something more international and bigger! atleast if i were to go back to canada they would've heard of the hotel. on a brighter note though, liang is across the street at Holiday INN Atrium and i'll be working the same shift as Thomas. Back to the Scavenger hunt..they made us run around city hall area when the sun is at it's peak! damn i'm surprised no one fainted lol! AND AND AND!!! omg..this is a story i'm telling my kids...i ran with a 10kg bag of rice on the streets of SG...i mean..what the hell? what does carrying rice around have anything to do with the IMF?!?! anyways..there were some fun times...like dancing and singing at the old supreme court infront of a bunch of car, buses and tourists! i bet the tourists must be thinking ppl in sg are weird or something towards that haha!

afterwards me, liang, eunice, elliott, john, jessica and thomas went to maxwell food centre for dinner then headed to superstar for a drink where we met up with villies and sky. it was a relaxing time after the scavenger hunt! reached home around 12 something...fell asleep by 1am lol!

today, i stayed home watching TV and doing the history project...liang came over to chill and we had dinner together! the history project is about 75% done! just need to edit 1 section and start on the powerpoint! can't wait to push this aside and concentrate more on the productivity sutdies project.

I'm sick! got a sore throat, coughing and stuffy nose! it's getting late and i wanna finish watching Boston Legal...so i'm out for now...peace! take care and god bless!

shop

let's see...

me, liang, thomas and elliott followed alan shopping ytd! he spent like 400 bux...rich bitch! lol! after we went to Petals to grab dinner....mmm...it was oh so good! i had the lamb chops, which were so good with the mint sauce...DELICIOUS!!

well, on a more serious note...

i've noticed that relationships have started to sprung up! congrats to everyone for finding someone! i've gotta stop thinking about trying to find someone, and just let things flo but i just can't help to think that, no one wants me! seriously speaking, i've looked into the fucking mirror, i've asked myself over and over what traits i have and what can i offer besides my heart and soul!

i have nothing..no looks, no money and well to some, my personality may not appeal to them. seriously though, it seems so hard to just find a female half to cherish time with! i wanna be able to look at a sunrise/sunset while holding to someone, hold hands while walking on the beach, surprise her with gifts just to see them smile...and so much more! i know i'm stupid for thinking about things like this..makes me seem so desperate, though some parts of me may be, but most it is just lusting to feel love. as an only child, basically growing up on the streets, with parents that left me alone during my whole childhood, i've never felt like i belonged...though i always put on a smile trying to make things look bright...i'm probably one of the saddest souls around!

I love the way love works...i love the way chemistry works, in the means of love. The trail to romance is so appealing. i wanna be able to experience what people, madly in love, experience! feel what they do, do what they do, and well just learn from them! i've discovered that, looking at a young or old couple, that i will picture myself with someone like that and pretend that i'm doing what they are. i know it may seem a bit crazy. ..your probably thinking, what's going on in this guys head...does he need a doc? no worries, it's just like reading a book or watching a romantic movie...u tend to place yourself in the characters shoes, even though u may not realize it but sub-consiously, you would! try it next time!

i know growing up in a western lifestyle has made my mindset different then others, here in singapore. I'm not on the verge to change myself for people! i like the way i think, talk and do things! i'm not gonna change myself for no one...ever! and if i'm gonna be single for the rest of myself because of it, then so be it! i may not appeal to be handsome, but hopefully someone can look past that and look at what's going on in the inside, rather then just judging me on a first glance basis!

it's tiring thinking about someone u like and it's tiring to just get them to notice you! i've been trying...really...but trying to juggle my time and projects, is like trying to fly without wings! she doesn't even know how i feel, maybe cuz we don't know each other well, and haven't spent any time together...i know this is my fault and i shouldn't be blabbing about it...but she did seem interested to get to know me...though if she was really interested she would have tried to make an effort too...so i guess overall, we both have our things to work on!

if u reached down this far...congrats! i know it was a long post and thx for taking the time to actually read my post... i'm tired and this corona is getting tapped out! so i'm headed to the fridge to get another then i'm off to bed! peace! take care!

sorry for the delay

[SONG] Lionel Richie - Hello

Sorry for the delay in updating...been friggin' busy, ya know? anyways..got lots to say and some pix to give u an idea of what i've been doing...

anyways...starting last monday..i've been stressing about my banquets ops project! my group and I have finally completed the work and handed it up on fri. the worst is still not over...we need to present the bloody thing this fri...god dammit! as if the project wasn't stressful enough..damn trainer! argh!

fri. night elliot, john, doug and lian stayed over! elliott, doug and me went to flair for awhile then we started drinking with john..elliott introduced a new game to us...basically the game will fuck u up..and the worst thing is ... u can't avoid it from happening haha! we drank til 4 or so then tried to get some sleep!

on sat we had to go for a training coarse and obviously from fri. night we didn't get much sleep!! the training was regarding to the Internationl Monetary Fund (IMF) & the World Bank Meeting! yes, we will be there to give delegates and patrons from 184 countries assistence! i was looking forward to the IMF thing but after the training, i'm not so sure lol!
after me, liang, eunice, susanna, alan, elliott, doug, thomas, chansey and her BF went for steamboat at chansey's BF's place! mmmm...soooo good! but it was so fucking hot haha! after went to ah chew dessert hut...i love the dessert there..it's so good and fresh..! just marvelous! then me, thomas, elliott, doug, liang and susanne went to bar stop for a drink..nice atomosphere and seats..so realxing just a great way to end off the day!

then today...went to watch The Break-Up with liang! the movie was ALRIGHT! but the ENDING SUCKED! omg..what's hollywood coming to these days? trying to make things different? i mean like just stick with what's good! if u watch the movie then you'll understand what i'm trying to say, don't wanna mess it up for anyone that's interested in watching it!

*do do do* time for some pix!



@ the Indonesian Riverside Restaurant for our Coarse Tutor Interaction Session (CTIS)
(i don't know why the pic is so pixelated...i tried to fix it but i can't..sorry!)



Messing around at a statue @ Clarke Quay



Messing around..ALOT of ppl were watching haha! (sorry for this pic too)



Riverside Point (Pic taken from Alan..his camera is better haha)



Homemade beer shots from Brewerkz! mmm..delicious..except for 1 haha!



it's like a wine tasting..just with beer of coarse!



Group BBQ at alan's place!



It was OH! so GOOD!



OUCH! my nips! grr...haha

sorry group

[SONG] Lionel Richie - Hello

i wanna do a big update on my blog but i can't! i'm just too damn busy with my banquet ops project! it's killing me cuz i'm carrying 6 other members and i can't let them down as a leader! so..ya sorry!

xiumin, farhan, doug, alan, villies and amanda!

i'm trying my best to bring everything togther! plz don't get angry if i can't produce what i say i will for the next day! but no worries!! THE PROJECT WILL BE FINISHED BY FRIDAY!!

i'm SO STRESSED! argh! it's a good lesson...builds character and allows u to learn time management!

i'm off to bed...PART B of my project just drained every drop of my blood!

peace!

long

sorry folks been busy with school and stuff so haven't had the time to update!

my main laptop is currently busy doing some DVD conversions...so i won't be doing a major update yet until it finishes....which should be tmr lol!

i's using my sony, which is quite un-ideal to use cuz it's so small and it's on my lap and well i guess cuz i'm lazy haha! anyways...

look out for these updates soon...

Group BBQ
CTIS (Course Tutor Interaction Session)
and a bit of other things..

hope to see u back soon! haha!
peace!

banquet ops

man oh man! i'm so happy that my Banquet Ops test was easy...i was expecting something far worst! i shouldn't be gloating in case i DO happen to fail or score low...but let's hope i can do well! it was so easy that it's scary...i think the exam is gonna be fucking killer!

the project itself is so fucking difficult..i'm really stressed up..i'm not so sure what we are suppose to do and i have to guide 6 other members in my group...i'm such a bad leader! i hope i can get them through this difficult time! argh...*sorry members if i'm not doing a good job*

ytd..went to causeway point with mat! went to eat at MOS burger and then we went to watch Dragon Tiger Gate! the movie wasn't as good as i thought but the fighting was sick! it was like a modern and ancient chinese movie merged in to a western matrix thingy...haha!

today! i overslept again! dammit! i've been oversleeping too much! i've missed so much lessons recently! i hope i can get back on track and do what i need to do! i've been thinking about furthering my studies, to getting a higher diploma...but if i keep going on this track, i'll never be able to even apply haha! let's hope i can get my life back to normal and start studying again!

i'm off peace!

changes

[song] 98 degrees - invisible man...wow..i complete forgot about this song...suites me so damn well!

...quite disappointed that some ppl want to change the trip from taiwan to thailand. i was really looking forward on going to taiwan but i guess if the majority wants to go to thailand, i have nothing to say! besides i can't change the minds of ppl...i agree it will be cheaper to go to thailand but i don't know..i guess it's just that feeling of not going to taiwan anymore that's bothering me. yes, more ppl would be going to thailand instead on taiwan so the more the merrier right? hopefully! who am i to be the party pooper anyways. just follow the group and it should all work out fine..besides holidays are for ppl to relax and have fun with ur friends so ya..i don't know what i'm really bitching about anyways...all i know is that i was so looking forward to the holidays but now i guess i'm just looking forward to going back to canada! i'm just thinking too much..i should just be happy to be able to go ANYWHERE with my friends and just have fun with no worries..so thailand here we come...

ytd...went to funan w/ thomas, xiumin and amy....after went to petals to eat haha..it was good...damn filling! after me xiumin and amy headed to superstar to chill...quite a tiring day it was!

i'm so stressed up on projects and stuff...this banquet ops project is killing me slowly! so stressed..i wanna vent so many things about school and my current life! i just don't know who i can turn to anymore...everyone will come up with the same answers and i truely don't wanna bother ppl with my problems...so no point on bitching..just stick through it and try to forget everything!

i'm out peace!

monday night

fuck me in the ass!

plz as a reminder to all tech geeks! if ur in the process of fixing anything...such as a comp. plz remember what ur doing if not u'll end up like me! i was so distracted by the miss universe 2006 pagent that i accidentally did something to my sonny vaio! so now for the third time!!! i have to re-do everything! fuck me hard!
i finally got my hands on the software to do a FULL restoration on my laptop so hopefully there won't be any problems after and i hope i won't get anymore viruse/tojans/worms/spy or ad-ware etc. wish me luck lol! luckily for me, tmr's lessons are cancelled so i can stay up till whenever and finish what i need to do to make my sony vaio run at peak performance!

anyways congrat to MISS PUERTO RICO, ZULEYKA RIVERA



though i thought there were much more well deserved contestants...this yrs winner is still a great one! congrat to canada for making it to the top ten! too bad canada didn't win again this yr...if they did..WOW it would make history haha!

sorry to miss singapore for not making the top 20...i just don't believe asians can compete with the world..for example the eastern and western europeans! they are just so much more beautiful and sexy! they know how to carry themselves well enough for these types of a competition! oh well! who knows? maybe a asian girl may win 1 day and as in asian i mean like jap, korean singapore etc. hm... maybe next year?

rmb my imagestation! here are the links and procedures again..i'll be posting these up for a awhile...

http://www.imagestation.com/members/azn-pimpdaddy

login/pass: viewmypixeasy (it's view my pix easy in 1 word)

step-by-step guide on accessing my imagestation:

click here for tutorial

...gonna go fix my comp. now..i think it's finished formatting lol! take care..i'll add to this later if anything!

UPDATED

u know when ur bored, when u go back to something u haven't touched in ages!

i FINALLY updated my imagestation!! it's been over a year since i've logged on and updated! i just added 1 album for now (w/o captions) cuz i'm way too tired!
i use to do it so frequently..i guess i got lazy or just had no time! ...most likely i was lazy haha!

anyways...i've included a tutorial for u all..just in case u didn't know how to log on and view the albums! it's 4am and i'm doing this..so i won't have a COMPLETE update yet..i'm gonna slowly finish it off...right now i'm just gonna upload some pix then i'll put in the captions a bit later!
expect alot of new pix...i've got a huge collection now..so i hope it will be exciting for everyone!
i was planning on switching to fotki or flickr but i've started this one already and i have lots of memories in there so just bare with the login process!

http://www.imagestation.com/members/azn-pimpdaddy

login/pass: viewmypixeasy

step-by-step guide on accessing my imagestation:

click here for tutorial

i'm tired! i'm off to bed..peace!

oh ya...enjoy the pix...check back daily for updated and such!

stomach ache

...dammit! my stomach's been acting up!

since tues. morning i've been getting stomach aches! i don't think it's food poisoning...just a stomach flu!

didn't go to school on tues. wed and fri. ... damn i missed out so much lessons! how am i gonna catch up? that means next week i've gotta do some mad cramping! argh...

i'm out peace!

sony vaio

fuck fuck fuck!

i'm fixing up the sony vaio pcg-tr2c that my dad gave me a few months ago! it was lying around the the house collecting dust and i had no time to repair it!

I finally decided to put the thing in to good use and who would have known that the comp. is in the worst shape it could be! fuck...sony doesn't put all the drivers up on their website, which is stopping me from updating some of the drivers! secondly, the built in camera on the cover doesn't seem to be working...holy shit! i mean i love sony pc's for their asthetic looks but they don't provide their customers with effective and working drivers, which is the biggest pain, especially when u can't find them from a third party driver site!

on another note...i had to format the comp. twice cuz i missed out a partition so after the first format i was left with 12gigs! that sucked so i had to re-do it and now i got 40! and if that wasn't worst, i was hit with shit loads of spyware/adware, when i was downloading software like anti-spyware for my comp! haha so ironic...and now i need to wait to download pirated versions of anti-virus and spyware removal programs from my toshiba laptop...which is taking awhile to do, considering the high file sizes! damn damn damn!

who would have know that such a small things can bring me so much trouble! fuck! argh...so frustrated! but when i'm done..it should be in running at it's peak for the first time since my dad doesn't know what he's doing with the comp. hahaha!

i'm out peace!

projects

ya ya ya i know...i haven't been updating in awhile...my bad! been fucking busy with school and shit! we got 1 project at the moment that's killing us! it's so fucking difficult and the fucking trainers wants so much shit done...it just seems like there's no bloody time to get everything done and perfected, ya know? fuck!! so stressed!

anyhoo...been getting stmoachs the past 2 days..i belive it's the food from TR that we had on monday cuz alan's been having the same problems after that luncheon! dammit students don't cook their fucking chicken properly!

tuesday there was a cocktail competition in school...i was a volunteer so i had to prep some stuff for the competition! all the contestents were great...congrats to elliott, jude and edmund for making it to the finals at DBL O! GOOD LUCK Y'ALL!

let's see..hm..oh yes...sat. met up with mat at woodlands! she WAS...remember the keyword here is WAS...teach me accountings..BUT it seems like she doesn't know what she's doing hahaha...it's not her fault..it's my fucking trainers fault for being so ineffective! fuck u mrs. lai! hahahaha i hate her!! anyways, back to sat. we didn't spend much time in the library so we decided to go eat..AGAIN...then we chilled a bit then went home. before going home though, we got stopped by these 2 ppl doing a survey or something...so we as good citizens took some time out to help them..the girl that was asking me gave me her bus. card and asked me to call her out for a drink or whatever...haha i was so shocked! haha and i lied to her on the survey haha hope didn't realize haha! woops!

...that's my boring life..so i'm out to bed, if i can get to sleep...been really struggling to fall asleep...life sucks like that..too many things on my mind and it just ruins everything!

peace!

tipsy

didn't go to school today..lol why? well i had the best sleep since school started and i didn't want to ruin the moment! i seriously don't know what's wrong with me recently! i got so much shit in my head that i just can't put myself to sleep! ytd was so good, maybe cuz of the rain, that i didn't wanna wake up!

i'm quite tipsy right now! i'm on my 8th corona and i'm struggling to type! i still got another 4 bottles waiting for me to down before heading to bed or passing out on the keyboard..which ever comes first lol!

the alcohol seems to soothe my soul! seriously, it's like medicine or something! it's not that i've turned into an alcoholic or anything, just that some things in life needs alcohol to cure!!

i really wish that i could get my facts straight! as in, what am i really thinking about it. Is everything linked together? i think i have a pin point on the problem but it's just that i can't get myself to overcome it! what i think the problem is, i'm mixed in emotions.

an old feeling seems to be coming back and a new one has emerged...but the problem is that i never had this feeling when i started getting this semi-insomia. which makes me think that this problem is not related to me not sleeping!

anyways...enough of my blabbing..i'm sure u all aren't interested in my life anyways...it's just so boring..so i'm off to drink my sorrows away! peace and fuck the world!

new sem.

it's a new semester, which u should know if u read my previous entries and well, things are going well! except for a few of fucking boring ass subjects, overall, it's great! it's so weird to see ppl u know if the halls and stopping half-way to have a quick minute convo w/ them!

anyways, i was told that my song is getting old so...here's a older joint for y'all to kick it! Mario - Let Me Love You .. non-remix..why? well i like the original, u can really sense the meaning in the track..!

let's see...

fri: stayed home and drank alone in the dark haha..feeling a bit, if u see my last post...

sat: went to sembawang w/ mat to eat..damn we ate so much...satay, stingray, cockles and she had hokkein mee haha..i was happy that i got to meet up w/ mat..seems like there's a spark around her now..i don't know how to explain it but...something seems to have changed...is it her glasses? haha..!

AT NIGHT, I GOT SURPRISED W/ A PHONE CALL NONE OTHER THEN LIANG LIANG!!!! she reached sat. night around midnight! OMG she lied to us all!! she told me she would be back on sun. night! i was so shocked and happy, tears came to my eyes! i'm so happy she's back!!

sun: chilled around my area and ate dinner with doug and jer at the coffee shop near my house! we had XO crab bee hoon, Mongolian pork ribs and hotplate tofu...MMM...so nice haha!

well, the thoughts about this girl are still in my head but i just try to go around the problem when i'm out w/ my friends or whatever.. can't let things stand in the way of cotinuing my day and letting ppl worry for something i can handle myself. it's something i'm use to, i belive, so ya..i can pass this stage..easiest way is if she was mine..muhaha...but let's see..haha!

peace y'all!

[lyrics Mario - Let Me Love You]

Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, YeahMmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah

[Verse 1:]
Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Wrist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

[Chorus:]
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[Verse 2:]
ListenYour true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Wrist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

[Bridge:]
You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

[Chorus:]
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[repeat til it ends (about 3 times)]

[Mario (talking):]
Let me love you that's all you need baby

crush

there's been alot on my mind recently and i think i'm being damn fucking childish about it! it's so high school stuff!

there's someone new in my life, a friend! a person that i wish i knew better! i want to be by her side! she's been depressed about some stuff going on in her class and well, i don't know why, it hurts me to see her like that! she's in a time of depression/sadness and i can't do anything! her classmates are making her and her friends feel like shit and it makes me want to go in and just burst at them! it's funny cuz i haven't felt like this in along time! i like her, i like her alot! i can't stop thinking about her! i think about..has she eaten? where is she? will she be safe? ... and many more things can pop in my head. i wish i could tell her how i feel about her but i'm not in the position right now to say it! we've never met outside of school, we talk only on msn and the occassional sms! how can i approach this..cute, intelligent and emotional girl, the girl that i've seem to be waiting for all my life? i'm lost for words and thoughts! i can't seem to pass the fact that i know her. a guy with my looks, brains and fat (haha) doesn't deserve someone like her...she deserves better, alot more than i can offer! i can only offer my voice, compassion, sincerity, heart and soul! will this be enough to win her over? what can i do to let her know that i've gone head over heels for her when we know nothing about each other?

i'm stuck like a high school boy w/ butterflies in his stomach everytime he sees her..my legs will get all wobbly and my palms all sweaty! i really wish i could be a man and just confess my heart to her..but i just do'nt have the chance to..seems like i can't get her out to chill, hence, no opportunity to express and show my true side! i want to be her best friend, her boyfriend..i want to be by her side at all times and just hold her til she's contended with happiness! i want her by my side to soak up all the thoughts and troubles running in my life...she's the person, i belive, i've been waiting my whole life for! she's everything i've seem to want and everything i need!

i need a fucking love doctor...mr. hitch where are u? lol! can't someone give me some advice? how can i approach someone, i barely know, about what i'm feeling w/o her running away scared and frightened?

god...love is the most complicated game ever! u never know who will win and who will lose! it's a game of chance...the biggest chance a person can take in life...! i can't help it..things happen for a reason...who knows...maybe we will be what we are looking for..if not the complete opposite..!

i'm out..plz post comments or any helpful tips on the tagboard..peace!

school

started my first day of school, since attachment ytd...

THE SCHEDULE IS SO FUCKED UP!!!! take a look, below




sorry the pic is a bit blurred but eh...u can get the idea..right? lol

tues. is my fav. day! as u can see i finish school at 11:45...the project work is just a slot so u can get together with ur group members and well brain storm and stuff..i believe is that they just want us to suffer by not using the time to put some classes in there...ggrrr...

as u can see on wed. and sat. i got the IMF training..IMF stands for the International Monetary Fund, which will be held in sept. in singapore..basically, for those who don't know what the IMF is, a place where rich fucks get together and talk about what to do with the world's money!! haha! i'm kind of happy for a couple of reasons...first..we get paid for doing this..secondly..i can use it to my advantage, my resume. BUT BUT BUT...i hate it cuz it's gonna cut in to our weekends AGAIN!!! fuckers...! damn mofoes are out for us!

anyways...i think most of my friends/classmates will be damn tired after school everyday...i know i will so i guess i can use this to save money? haha prob. not...but a guy can still hope! lol!

i'm gone..need to clean my house and shit...peace!

what a week

what a week...i mean damn! the fucking holidays's are coming to an end and i'm headed back to school...! the holiday went by so fast that it didn't even seem like we had a break! oh well...that's life right? haha no that don't work...can someone give me some words on encouragement plz! haha..argh!

anyways..let's see...hm....

during the holidays i got drunk, went windows shopping while my friend shopped her ass off, went to eat at rosette, slept alot, caught on some movies...

let me just say...Just My Luck, the movie, was pretty funny....scary movie 4 sucked and the omen was weird...superman was cool but i didn't see the big hype...i thought it would have been super super wicked...but it was just uh good? lol...

anyhoo...my schedule for school is like 8:30 to 6:15 or 9 to 6:30...sucks right? except tues. when i get off school at like 11:45..woohoo..hahaha that's it..the rest just sucks..i mean fuck man they even cut in to our weekends again!!!! YES, which means i got classes on sat..FUCK FUCK and DOUBLE FUCK! lol!

..i'm off to bed...gotta get a good rest for school...sucks....peace!

christian...

went to watch the omen and just my luck ytd with samantha..lol just my luck is so funny...though it's quite lame it's still entertaining lol...today i'm gonna go to superstar to meet up with some of the outet ppl, some what of a good bye party..hope it will be fun....get drunk? let's hope so hahaha!


on to other stories... LOOK BELOW....



aww..isn't the boy so cute? no no, it's not mine...he's my god-son...and the hottie next to him is the mom...isn't she such a milf?? hahaha

stella: miss u so much..seems like i've been missing so much in ur life..i really wish i could have been there but there is just some stuff i have to do, i hope u understand...christian has grown so much..he's so cute and looks so healthy..ur doing a great job and don't let anyone tell u different...i love u babes..hope to see u very soon..take care hun...!

now back to the last post about finding friends...

after much thoughts and contemplating, i've come to the conclusion of ppl are just scared to meet new ppl. if they have no link (eg. in the same class, work together etc.) they won't be bothered to further a relationship as friends, this goes for both man and woman, in general! like i said in the last post, ppl always think that u want more out of them, then just to be friends! i don't know if it's cuz i'm from a western country that i'm more open to society whereas the asian society is more self-consious or hidden. i've noticed that western lifestyle is very open to new and bright ideas, whereas asian lifestyle's are still living in the past. i mean when was the last time u could just ask someone, such as a acquaintance (i mean u still have a semi-link between each other) to go out for dinner, get a phone number or just watch a movie...just something to strenghten a bond? become a 'friend' maybe this 'acquaintance' could end up being ur best friend, hearing ear or just a common friendship u coul cherish! i've been trying so hard to make more friends, helping ppl around me, always going an extra mile for ppl but in the end i'm still left with holes..i just want to be able to find someone i can talk to in the time of need, call someone to eat diner with or just chill at a park to talk etc. i have some close friends but sometimes u just need outsiders, u know what i mean?
trying to make friends is really a mission...trying to get a phone number, get someone out for dinner or just trying to have someone to talk to is near to impossible in my life. maybe it's just my luck or maybe i'm just destined to this life...whatever it is...i pray to u god to help me and allow me to find more friends to share my joys and happiness!

later y'all!

holidays

FINALLY I'M ON MY FIRST DAY OF MY 11 DAY HOLIDAY!!!!!! w00t!!!!

i'm so fucking happy that i don't need to set my alarm for 4:45am anymore!!!! OMG the feeling is so amazing hahaha!

anyways..liang liang is leaving back to china for 2 weeks tmr...i'm gonna miss her..LIANG U BETTER BUY ME ALOT ALOT OF FOOD hahahaha!

...have u ever noticed it's so hard to initiate a conversation with someone u wish to make friends with? i mean if u approach someone they probably think ur trying to hit on them or get in their fucking pants! i mean i've been trying to make more friends but it seems like god isn't allowing me to...ppl always automatically assume that u want more then to be just friends...it's so hard finding a GOOD friend these days it's also hard trying to keep the ones that ur not so close with! i love hanging with a big group but it's just so hard finding ppl to add into the 'circle!' anyways...i don't even know what i'm really trying to say...i guess i'm just bitching about not being able to find more friends..i don't know! ah fuck it!

i'm out peace!