christian...

went to watch the omen and just my luck ytd with samantha..lol just my luck is so funny...though it's quite lame it's still entertaining lol...today i'm gonna go to superstar to meet up with some of the outet ppl, some what of a good bye party..hope it will be fun....get drunk? let's hope so hahaha!


on to other stories... LOOK BELOW....



aww..isn't the boy so cute? no no, it's not mine...he's my god-son...and the hottie next to him is the mom...isn't she such a milf?? hahaha

stella: miss u so much..seems like i've been missing so much in ur life..i really wish i could have been there but there is just some stuff i have to do, i hope u understand...christian has grown so much..he's so cute and looks so healthy..ur doing a great job and don't let anyone tell u different...i love u babes..hope to see u very soon..take care hun...!

now back to the last post about finding friends...

after much thoughts and contemplating, i've come to the conclusion of ppl are just scared to meet new ppl. if they have no link (eg. in the same class, work together etc.) they won't be bothered to further a relationship as friends, this goes for both man and woman, in general! like i said in the last post, ppl always think that u want more out of them, then just to be friends! i don't know if it's cuz i'm from a western country that i'm more open to society whereas the asian society is more self-consious or hidden. i've noticed that western lifestyle is very open to new and bright ideas, whereas asian lifestyle's are still living in the past. i mean when was the last time u could just ask someone, such as a acquaintance (i mean u still have a semi-link between each other) to go out for dinner, get a phone number or just watch a movie...just something to strenghten a bond? become a 'friend' maybe this 'acquaintance' could end up being ur best friend, hearing ear or just a common friendship u coul cherish! i've been trying so hard to make more friends, helping ppl around me, always going an extra mile for ppl but in the end i'm still left with holes..i just want to be able to find someone i can talk to in the time of need, call someone to eat diner with or just chill at a park to talk etc. i have some close friends but sometimes u just need outsiders, u know what i mean?
trying to make friends is really a mission...trying to get a phone number, get someone out for dinner or just trying to have someone to talk to is near to impossible in my life. maybe it's just my luck or maybe i'm just destined to this life...whatever it is...i pray to u god to help me and allow me to find more friends to share my joys and happiness!

later y'all!

holidays

FINALLY I'M ON MY FIRST DAY OF MY 11 DAY HOLIDAY!!!!!! w00t!!!!

i'm so fucking happy that i don't need to set my alarm for 4:45am anymore!!!! OMG the feeling is so amazing hahaha!

anyways..liang liang is leaving back to china for 2 weeks tmr...i'm gonna miss her..LIANG U BETTER BUY ME ALOT ALOT OF FOOD hahahaha!

...have u ever noticed it's so hard to initiate a conversation with someone u wish to make friends with? i mean if u approach someone they probably think ur trying to hit on them or get in their fucking pants! i mean i've been trying to make more friends but it seems like god isn't allowing me to...ppl always automatically assume that u want more then to be just friends...it's so hard finding a GOOD friend these days it's also hard trying to keep the ones that ur not so close with! i love hanging with a big group but it's just so hard finding ppl to add into the 'circle!' anyways...i don't even know what i'm really trying to say...i guess i'm just bitching about not being able to find more friends..i don't know! ah fuck it!

i'm out peace!

sat

let's see here now...

friday: went to ANOTHER FUCKING SAFTI!!!!! but this time it was more relaxed...i didn't have to stay late and i didn't have to carry much...most of the time we just supervised the wash-up and make sure everything was going smoothly...on the PLUS side i get a extra off day...my attachment is suppose to finish this coming sat. but i got so many OFF IN LIEUS that i finish this wed. hahahahahah...so happy...i have a 11 day holiday...w00t!

sat: went to superstar for villies b-day...she was so shocked when we went in singing happy b-day with a HUGE fucking 1.5kg heart shaped cake bought by eunice...mmmm it was oh so delicious! hahaha! around 4am we went to eat at this 24hr coffee shop...we had curry fish head at 4am..WOW...it was so damn nice, eating and talking shit til about 5:45am .. got home around 6 am and slept like a hog til this afternoon!

anyways..not much happened last week..just wanna wish villies another happy b-day and i hope that u have many more great memories to come!

peace!

busy

sorry everyone...been a bit busy to update..

anyways..not much happened...i'm going on my third week at rosette...which means i'll be finished in 2 weeks time...CAN'T WAIT!!! haha! i'm so happy that i can start my pathetic 1 week holiday soon..!

lastnight i went to Ministry of Sound w. liang, cherry, frances, vu, eleanor and elliott...got home around 7am haha...damn damn tired..i seriously don't understand why clubs don't have bigger RnB/Hip-Hop rooms...i mean MOS has a main room playing trance/house, a small room for retro/old-skool and a so called medium room i guess playing RnB/hip-hop...the RnB/hip-hop room is always crowded...have they thought of making it bigger? they just don't have the capacity and they don't want to cater to the market...oh well..what to do...overall it was a pretty good night...

i'im starting to miss OCBC alittle...i miss the scenaric views from the 33rd story...i miss the exquiste bar and the SFTs..i DON'T miss all the carrying and lifting though haha..

here are some pix from OCBC...











that's all folks...
enjoy the song...i think it's the best song for anyone that's in love with or crushing on someone...peace y'all!

[lyrics: 112-god knows]

Baby tell me why
why do you question
all this love that I have for you
if you look into my eyes
and make an exception
I will show you love like no one before
put your trust in me
allow me to be that
baby give me your hand to hold
cause the feelings that I have
are so complicated that words cannot explain there is only one who knows

Only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows

Baby tell me what
what is the reason
one good reason you're so insecure
cause after all that I have done
I think you should know by now
girl im down for you and the love I have is pure
I wanna help you understand
just how I feel for you
you're the one that I can't let go
because the feeling that I have
are so complicated that words cannot explain there is only one who knows

Only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart(Speak to my heart)
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows

and all of my lonely days
only God knows i'm lonely
and all my sleepless night (only God sees me crying)
and everytime I think of you
only God can read my mind (he reads my mind)
God knows I tried
if you understand
heaven knows I miss you girl
only God can see how much
cause everytime you go away (I long for your touch)
now when I say I love you girl
only God sees my heart (he sees my heart)
he sees my heart

only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart (girl you know that he sees my heart)
and that he cares about you,(and he cares)
God knows (yes he does)
that i'm thinking of you (and im thinking of you)
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what god knows (yes he does)
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how wish that you knew what God knows


la la la da da la la la
i'm thinking of you l
a la la da da la la la
how I wish that you knew

SAFTI

alright well here's the story...i was assigned to go to banquet on friday...i wanted to skip it and take a medical leave BUT i was tempted not too! if i attend the banquet function i would receive an extra off day and i get to save money on seeing the doctor...good right? well...here's what happened!

the reason i wanted to take a medical leave on friday was because of this event called 'Safti' it's a event held almost every 2 to 3 months for the soldiers who have completed their NS (national service)...NS is compulsory for ALL singaporeans. This function consists of about 500 pax! as u can imagine the amount of students needed to cater to such a function. LUCKILY, my batch has done service for Safti and the call-back to banquet was to assist in any way possible!

so 5 of us from rosette; me, frances, jason, charlize and zeke. OCBC; mei chew, honey, meng jing and lynn were called back. me, jason, zeke, frances, lynn and honey had to handle the pantry area were we distribute wine, port sherry, coke, sparkling grape juice, bread and other miscellaneous items that were needed to run the operations. Doesn't sound that bad right?

WELL...here's the problem...

me, zeke, jason and fidarous had to do the loading and unloading of items. remember it's 500 pax, so you can imagine the amount of cutlery, plates, glassware, linen, beverages, trays and other items needed to run the operation! DAMN DAMN DAMN!! it was so tiring doing it the first time...imagine doing it THREE, that's right THREE times in one day: everytime my shirt got soaked in sweat, singapore weather just adds to the fucking problem! jason and zeke only did it twice cuz they left at around 10:30pm...i could have left to but i didn't have to report for work the next day so i volunteered to stay behind and help the SFT, i felt bad cuz there wasn't much ppl helping him to start with.

so we get back to school at around 12pm...unloaded the truck, smoked for awhile and started to work again! re-organizing the banquet store was like hell cuz it's so small. wash-up was busy with the cleaning, just basically everyone had something to do. i was sorting out the different glassware...it took about 1 hour to complete...by the end of like 15min everything started to look the same!
imagine this: banquet goblets, multi-purpose goblets, vip goblets, vip white wine glass, vip red wine glass, muslim goblet, alcoholic port sherry glass and non-alcoholic port sherry glass ..OMFG! it was hell i tell ya!

anyways...because i stayed back and worked for 16 hrs..my trainer is giving me 2 off days to compensate..good right? well i don't know..it was damn tiring...i reached home at around 2:45am and i showered for 1 hr and sat in front of the TV for like 2 hrs just stoning there like an idiot smoking and de-stressing with a beer.

i swear if it wasn't for the off-day i wouldn't have gone...at the end of the night i'm kind of glad i went cuz i met some new friends and i get 2 days off...but the after shocks of the loading and unloading is really killing me right now; sore back, sore groan (from squatting too much) and my two big toes feel numb (lol)!

imagine ur pack of cigs ending up like this...





that's what happened at the end of the day...IN MY FUCKING POCKET...luckily it didn't ruin any smokes...i would have suffered...i smoked the whole pack in 1 day and i opened a new one when i reached home...as u can see...i was STRESSED OUT! lol!

there's another Safti coming on the 16th of June..should i go and get 2 more off-days, making it 4 in total? haha...post comments..thx! see ya..take care...i know it's quite a long post.

toronto party

i just found a video from a group that hosts asian parties in Toronto called Acom. (visit http://www.acomproductions.com for pix and all) i just wanna share with all the singaporeans how we do it in toronto...the video i'm posting was the lastest event held at the docks w/ more that 2300+ ppl and special guest from playboy magazine: Kimberly King!




the last time i went to the docks was a few yrs back, when i was in canada of course, for a wet tee shirt competition! damn damn damn..all i remember is that the girls were HOT hahaha! anyways, watching this video, made me miss the clubs in toronto..singapore clubs, for now atleast, will never hit up to this type of level..i mean if u notice, the crowd is all up bumping and grinding, while in sg ppl seem to be holding back when they club. clubbing should be fun and laid back. i understand the fact of ppl in relationships so they would be holding back, which is fine, but to have a night out is to, relax, let-loose and just enjoy the crowd and music right? something i haven't seen in the singaporean night life, maybe i'm just going to the wrong places lol!

i miss toronto clubs, the main reason is...THE MUSIC! the clubs here are too into their techno/trance/house/jungle...hip-hop and RnB are getting more popular but the ppl are too conservative for that kind of atmosphere and by atmosphere i mean the type of dance that persuade this type music to be so called 'sexy'

anyhoo, toronto clubs rock, SG sucks! haha! peace!

lala

last week was a week i don't want to rmb!

a grown man crying in the middle of the night is something i don't want to go through anymore...atleast for now! i mean i'm not afraid to cry...it was what was on my mind that i really want to forget! i'm feeling better, alot! thx to liang liang and xiumin for helping me through this rough patch in life..though xiumin may think she didn't really do much, but ur presence and voice was more than enough, really and thx a mil!

ANYHOO!!!! lets change the subject shall we? YES we shall richie..!

i just realised how much i need to really get my hands on a card reader! i have some pix i wanna upload so that i can prob. do some serious blogging..though u may all not be interested in the subject but i wanna discuss these topics to improve my writing skills, improve my logical thinking and enhance my english through literacy writing!

lets see nothing to blog about this weekend so bleh...JUST 1 thing i wish to say to all my group friends in the outlets...sorry bout leaving early and all on sat..i know you were all very busy and very tired at the end..so sorry! 220 pax is nothing to joke about...!

...U ALL THINK I SHOULD CHANGE MY BLOG SKIN YET? POST COMMENTS IN THE TAG BOARD, THX...!

i'll blog again soon! take care all....peace!

home

sat: went to amanda and amy's b-day party @ superstar! i drank some beer, chivas and tequila...i was on the verge of getting high BUT i puked and i puked ALOT!!! 2 times when i reached home and 3 times when i woke up! i don't know why i would puke, it was just disgusting! i didn't puke any food or anything..it was pure brown water..i think it was my stomach acids or something! maybe i shouldn't have drank so much the whole week...who knows!

anyhoo...amy and amanda: hope u had a great b-day...sorry for leaving so early...hope it won't happen again...lol!

sun: went to watch Over The Hedge w/ liang! it's a pretty funny movie..i hate paying for cartoons but there wasn't really anything to watch but the movie wasn't so bad so i'm not angry haha! then liang came to my house to stay...we watched 3 ninjas and monster in law dvds hee...

*topic of the day* HOME HOME HOME HOME!!!!

just wanna say thx to someone -- STELLA!!! i HATE U! hahaha just kidding! u know i love u w/ all my heart and soul!

here's the case...i just visited stella's blog and i saw a photo that i didn't expect to see...


immediately after i saw this pic, tears came to my eyes..! 7 of the guys in that pic are my boys (there's 8 but i don't know 1 of them haha)...we've been through thick and thin together! when i saw this pic..my heart started to get mooshy, my hands are literally trembling when i type and memories just keep flashing back and forth in my head! i can't take it..seeing this pic makes me want to drop the 1yr+ i've spent in school and just go home and chill w/ my boys/friends! i hate pretending to be strong when i'm not, i hate being alone when i choose to and most importantly i hate the fact that i've run away from something i didn't want to happen! the only reason i've been able to stay strong in singapore, alone and scared, is that i want to accomplish something! i want a diploma and maybe a degree after! does this make me strong? does this show courage and strength? HELP ME!!! i'm so lost right now, this moment in time this very second! i just wanna hop on a plane home, land and get a beer w/ my friends in toronto! FUCK! FUCK FUCK!
i guess i'm just being stupid again...i need a slap in the face to wake me up! or maybe i should just sleep away the thoughts i have in my head right now!

...i'll be okay...hopefully...just need sometime to cool down and relax!
sorry stella..it's not ur fault...lol...i'm just thinking too much, hey it's what i do best right?
peace!

talk?

topic: soothing voice

sorry everyone..i know i just blogged ytd but this is something i really need to get off my back...hey what's blogging for if u can't bitch and rant about whatever u want right? lol

anyhoo..here's the case...i know i'm being an idiot for even thinking this or blogging about it...so be it, i'm a total idiot!

i was just sitting in front of the television and it just hit me...i wanted to find someone to talk on the phone with..now u may be asking urself, is it that hard to find someone to talk to if u have friends? well...yes cuz it depends on the type of person u wish to talk to...do u want someone that can listen? bitch w/ u? can carry a convo? let them talk while u listen, when the fact is u want to talk? etc. etc. etc.

see...this may all be leading to 1 thing...a girlfriend! if i had a girlfriend to wake up or to talk to...then i wouldn't be in this situation correct? correct richie! i think..now i'm just thinking..sub-consciously all these issues running back and forth in my head are ways of covering up some issues...most importantly...desperation...desperation to find that someone special...why can't my life be like a fucking movie? i mean movies make love seem so much easier than reality...ya i know alright..ur thinking it's just a movie...but most movies have a base on where the story comes from right? so the writer or director or whoever writes these damn movies may have encountered these types of situations right? well maybe..who knows!

so anyways...what i'm thinking is that my sub-conscious is letting these weird signals to my brain saying...find someone to talk to..! so i started looking through my phone list...it's 2 am may i remind u...i called liang thinking, hm...maybe she's still up...! wrong! she was asleep (sorry liang)! then i started to really look deep deep deep into my list, and what i came up with was..absolutely nothing! firstly, i was scared to wake anyone up...secondly..i didn't know who to call anyways...lastly..no one on my list seems to fit the description on who i'm looking for to talk to (sorry everyone)!

so when u think..u tend to think too much correct? so looking for this voice to hear me blab and shit was pretty much impossible...then 1 thing led to another and i'm thinking about my pathetic life and here i am blogging about it to the whole fucking world! i know there maybe more pathetic ppl out there then me but for now...in my group of friends, my life surroundings, my past and temp. future...i'm the most pathetic thing walking the streets of singapore!

i just need a soothing voice that can carry a conversation, listen to me (i'm not that selfish am i?), give advice and well JUST BE THERE!!!!!!

a girlfriend would prob. do these things..friends, may not go to that extent...i could be wrong, but for now atleast...this is what's running through my mind..!

...girlfriend...hm...

smart, funny, cute, outgoing, un-shy, great personality, caring, minimal body hair (lol)!! <--quite practical isn't it? hm...is it too much? do i have high-expectations?

nice toes (hee) and fair skinned are a extra bonus....

...who knows! i'm a fool that thinks way too much...

i'm off to find my bestest friend in the whole fucking world...he was born in 1873 in Amsterdam, Holland...his name is Heineken!
peace bitches!

sorry

*song: James Blunt - You're Beautiful...i believe this song fits me well*

hey y'all, so sorry i haven't had the time to blog recently!

anyways here's what happened in my dull life recently..

sat: went to superstar w/ alan, doug and er chong...just chilled and drank a bit..nothing special!

sun: went to steamboat w/ liang, eunice, jasmine and alan! *i got some pix, but i had to return the memory card reader to liang so i can't post any pix taken from my phone right now..so sorry, wait til i have time to go purchase one!* anyways..after we went to Ah Chew (funny name right? lol) to eat some chinese dessert...MmMmMm..delicious!

mon to wed: nothing special happened.. haha

...serious topic now...!

i've been working/attached to The Executives' Club for alittle more than 3 weeks now..! it's situated in the central business district, raffles place. here's what i have noticed!!

firstly, we have done a few functions for the OCBC bank...and DAMN DAMN DAMN...all i can say is that i'm in the wrong bloody coarse haha! the trainees, tellers...infact the staff in general; referring to the females of course, are mostly HOT HOT HOT!!!! i can lose track of what i'm doing in a split second...i mean my eyes are getting a damn work out and it's damn distracting!

secondly, every morning when i go to work or when i'm going home after a morning shift...i can see so many nice office ladies wandering the streets of raffles place...my head won't stop moving from left to right; top to bottom! it's a damn work out for my head, yet my head still won't shrink haha and sometimes even my jaws will get a good work out...! dammit! i wish i was smart enough to study a office type job so i can go work in that area and get a fucking hard-on every fucking morning! hahaha! jokes (well not really lol)

lastly, (this sounds like an essay haha) across the street of the OCBC bank building is boat quay..! after after shift is done, most of the time we will head over for supper or a drink or whatever...and the mini pubs, clubs and coffee houses situated here are swarming with fine female body parts..! every pub/club/coffee house will have atleast 1 or 2 hot girls..when ur eating (vu will understand what i mean by this) ur head won't stop moving side to side; glancing up and down..enjoying god's creations to the max! haha!

OVERALL!!!!! raffles place is the place to work! i mean damn...it's my motivation to wake up everyday to head to my free/extensive/tiring labour job! if i had a opportunity to work in this area...i would definately take the chance...no doubt about it =)

i'm out man...peace!

mp3z...

Topic: mp3 players

okay for the folks in toronto...this may rarely occur to u since most of y'all drive and shit...so for all the singaporeans u should know what i mean by this blog entry...

...today as i was taking the MRT home...i noticed a guy tapping his feet to the music on his mp3 player...nothign wrong with that, since i was tapping my fingers while listening to mine...

at the time i believe i was listening to mobb deep - quiet storm...so as i was glancing at this guy i noticed that he was really engrossed into his music, which of course is fine since music is made to be enjoyed...besides tapping his foot for the whole journey, he started to shake his body like he was in a club or something...it's kind of embarrassing to see a single guy listening to music, tapping his foot and starting to dance right? anyways..the point of this entry is...what the fuck is he listening to?

taking the fact he's chinese, i beleive he was probably listening to jay chow? wang lee hom? jj lin? hm...i was contemplating to figure out what he was listening to...though i am chinese, i rarely listen to chinese music, though i do enjoy the occassional oriental twist to my music..since i listen to hip-hop and Rnb and knowing most local ppl listen to chinese music, i automatically assumed he was listening to chinese music!

so i took out my iPOD to change the selection the of hip-hop to canto/mando pop...since thinking about this whole topic made me want to listen to chinese music..about 10 min later, the guy took out his creative zen and since i was thinking so hard about what this fucker was listening to, i couldn't help but glance over to see his zen...! what came to a shock was that it wasn't chinese, hip-hop or pop music...i saw the artists and album name...ANDREA BOCELLI - Amore!!!!!! OMFG!!! i have no problems with classical music...i enjoy it..but the fact u can groove on the mrt listening to classical music really came to a big big fucking shock!!

i literally dropped my jaw and started to stare at the guy! Also, as another note, the guy wasn't old at all...he was prob. my age or maybe a year or two older..!

anyways...what i saw really opened my eyes...now whoever i see with a headphone/earphone i'm just gonna wonder, what the fuck everyone is going to be listening too...serious..i mean most of my friends listen to chinese or pop music..i think i'm the only 1 that listens to true/pure hip-hop...so that's gonna be alright..but to all the strangers ... i'm not checking u out..unless ur hot, haha, i'll be contemplating what is going through yours ears...no doubt!

anyways i'm out...ppl dancing to classical music really got my mind spinning...peace!

cycling etc.

i know it's been awhile since i last blogged, so here's what i did this past week!

on sat i went to Ministry of Sound (MOS) for Ya Mone's b-day party, then i headed down to Happy (a gay club where my friend works) to chill for awhile..got pretty tipsy after lol..

sun: i went to KM8 @ Sentosa with zeke, his girl and sarah...drank a bit and hung around then went to Wala Wala @ Holland V w/ just zeke and his girl..it's a nice place w/ a GOOD live band..i'm going back there for sure!

MONDAY!! hehe..went cycling @ east coast park w/ jessica, frances and alan! (pix below) it was so nice to get some frucking excercise done haha..i haven't gone cycling in ages..it was so fun just riding around and looking at the scenary..after we met up with zi jing @ tampines mall...we ate again and chatted awhile and took photos outside haha (i haven't gotten the photos yet, sorry)...this weekend we will be heading to pasir ris park to rollerblade and shit this sunday..i hope we can head to fisherman's village to eat muhahahaha!

tues: started work @ OCBC..it SUCKS!!! there aren't any fucntions so we have nothing to do..i'm situated at the bar all week and all i can say is that it's damn boring BUT BUT BUT i get to enjoy a kick ass view of singapore's city..marvelous!
after work me, sarah, kerine, harris, frances and jessica headed to Eski Bar..it's a bar that's FREEZING cold and most ppl need a jacket to stay inside..LUCKILY FOR ME I'M A CANADIAN SO I CAN WITHSTAND THE COLDNESS muhahahaha..sorry singapoeans hahaha!

wed (today): went for supper (first) w/ shalini, frances, jessica and amanda @ shah alam (is the spelling right? haha) anyways..we ate and chatted awhile then liang liang, alex, elliott and christopher came over from petals and that's when i had my SECOND supper lol..i'm gonna get FUCKING fat soon time!

pix...



it's the wind that's making me fat..*humph*


nice ass eh? lol!


hehe..so stylish lol jokes!


after cycling @ tampines mall! l-r: me, jessica and frances!


l-r: frances, alan and me


me and sarah @ sentosa: KM8


kickass view of SG from OCBC 33rd floor: executives' club!


me and sarah @ the executives' club bar...


the lounge area at the executives' club


sick isn't it?


the bar area @ the executives' club...

This WeeK!

okay let's see here...hm...alrighty i'll start with...

Sat: got piss drunk at Superstar KTV..damn i really needed that (if u read my last post) i felt damn good the next day...like i had a fucking 100kg weight taken off my shoulder's but sad to say it didn't really last long enough...

Sun: went to frances' house for dinner...she cooked up szechaun food..MMMMM it was SO good and DAMN DAMN spicy haha! i loved it..the feeling of sweating ur ass off when u eat is so so shiok (shiok = wicked/good etc.)



doesn't look spicy eh? hehe well ur way way off...damn!



this was oh so good! i want more!! haha!



enjoying...L-R: Me, Amanda, Jessica, Amy, Lea and Zi Jing!



After the meal...*burp* L-R: John, Jessica, Zi Jing, Amy, Amanda, Me and Frances!

Mon: FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! the WORST time i ever had...u all know i don't like to hold grudges or hate on ppl...but this is...*speechless*...i had to go back to school for banquet..the SFT (which is in lame-terms my senior) is a fucking blur idoiotic bitch! she knows nothing what so ever and me and honey had to do everything..literally! damn just thinking back about that day is making me all vexed...i won't say much except...fuck u felicia!! muhahaha...

Tues: after work i went SHOPPING teehee..it's been so LONG since i used a card haha! i bought a pair of classic new balance shoes...looks like edison chan's one in intial D...so now my feet can look like him muahahaha...anyways..after went to raffles city's timberland...bought 2 t-shirts @ 49 nett...finally i got some new shirts i can wear on the weekends...but it seems like there isn't really a use cuz, well i wear my fucking uniform 6 days a week now haha!

Wed: went to ...it was a good experience...got to see alot of countries foods and see some ice sculpting and fruit carvings...me. honey and jessica went a bit late so there wasn't much to see...overall though we got to eat alot of free food..muhahaha that's right...FREE!!! it was interesting to walk around and just look at the cultures and 'hotel' related items! there were shit loads of Shatec students haha..almost every corner u turn lol! <--i found out today in foyer 1 and 2 (at the expo where the event is being held) were the culinary and pastries displays..dammit i missed it..oh well i guess i can wait til 2008..haha! Thurs...Today: my aunt smsed me out of the blue saying she was gonna arrive in SG tonight..i was like uh ... haha! so i lounged..went to rosette/sha villa to find some friends for awhile..then headed to orchard to 'window' shop..but that didn't happen cuz i walked out with a bottle of <- Issey Miyake L'Eau D'Issey Pour Homme Eau de Toilette Spray hehe..i just love it...*sniff sniff* mmm...! around 8 i went to find my aunt...we were in 2 different sections of chinatown and it took us an hour to find each other...so i actually saw her at 9:30 lol! we went for supper and talked a bit then i came home..i should be meeting here on sunday before she goes back home...it feels so nice to see a family member again lol! --well that's my week..i'll update again soon--peace! .. as promised..pix of the zoo and rosette... if the pix look a bit weird, it's cuz i had to re-size them to fit the blog skin...sorry! Zoo...







Rosette pix of table side service...



lobster bisque made by liang...



Caesar Salad made by yuri...



Black pepper steak by Elliott

depression...

i've hit yet another stage of depression..!

i REALLY REALLY REALLY don't wanna be writing this stuff in my blog but i don't know where else to turn to...i don't wanna start blabbing everything to my friends..i mean there's no use..it's all gonna be the same answer, what can they really do besides console me? can they make this stage of sadness go away? the answer's probably not! so i'll just stick to what i do best...keeping it deep down inside and just put on a happy smile when i'm with them...

just a word of advice though...keeping ur shit bottled up isn't really a healthy thing to do..i should follow my own advice shouldn't I? oh well...i guess i'm just a hypocrite...lol!

anyways..down to the real point of depression...

i guess i'm just not happy...it's the same old thing..loneliness...! i wish i could find someone i could converse, joke, hang and just be there..! i want someone that i can just hold til the sunrises and when the sunsets...! is it that hard to find someone? for me YES! for others it may come as easy as riding a bicycle for them!
i hate staying up alone and thinking how would life be if i had someone to share it with right now..i hate the fact i wake up alone without any schedule to meet a loved one...i hate the fact that i have no one to keep me up at night on the telephone...i'm just jealous of what couples get to do! i want that joy of being kept up til the break of dawn...i want what they have ... PERIOD!!!!
i have a friend...he thinks it's not that important to find a girlfriend or a soul mate at his age, he's 18 or 19 can't rmb..anyways..i kind of admire his thinking at times..i mean why bother urself with some skank ass bitch that's gonna use u for money..on the other hand what if u could find that special someone that will make ur life filled with joy and happiness? there are ups and downs to the situation but all i can say from experience is that...trying to find someone u can be with is a great way of learning about life, ppl and the way the world spins! without these learning ur gonna stay in a world of innocence and won't mature to what the modern world thinks...!
anyways back to my story...the fact of being single can be great don't get me wrong..i mean i'm not 'desperate' to find someone, though i may pursue myself as i am cuz i take joy at looking at god's creations...take girls...i love looking at 'special' features eg. eyes, lips, legs, ass, curves, cheeks, skin, hair and grooming..by taking these in to consideration, u can find out alot about a girl and u can appreciate what they r doing to matain this kind of look for the ppl around them to see...i mean it isn't easy waking up 2-3 hrs before work to put on make up, shave/wax etc. this is why when i look at girls, i can look into deep details which makes ppl think i'm a pervert or something...but nevermind that..atleast i know deep down inside that i'm not a perv, it's all good for me!

okay okay i'm going off track abit...

just think to urself for 1 min...this is my life right now...
...work/school, eat, sleep, shit, chill, go back to an empty house...
okay..now u may be thinking...almost everyone has the same life style...*wrong*
how many ppl walk home to an empty fucking house? though there are but not many right? yes..i choose to live alone cuz i like the sense of independancy and all but it would be nice to have someone to call and ask how there day was, what they did, did u miss me? all that jibberish..! am i wrong to say? u may think i'm some kind of idiot cuz it may not make sense to u...but if u put some deep thought into it when ur alone on the bus or train...you'll know what the fuck i mean!

anyways...

loneliness is depressin'...showing ur happy is a fucking mission! end of story!

i just need somewhere to rant all this shit out!

by the way...crying at night all alone doesn't really do anything..i know, i've tried! <-- that's right! i cried...i think it takes a real man to admit that he can shed his tears without fear...any fucker who lies about it, isn't being true and worst of all, it shows insensitivity towards trival matters!

i'm out man..i'm tired and this shit is fucking getting me all vexed up! i'll blog some other fucked up things that's going on in my head next time!
peace!

ZoO

...went to the ZOO ytd haha! it was FUN FUN FUN!!! me, jessica, amy and frances went to the zoo in the day and we saw lots of cool animals...some shitting in front of us, some pissing and some even FUCKING!!! hahaha animals having sex is such an amusement! hahaha! after john and jasmine came to join us to the Night Safari! it kind of sucked cuz it was raining and u can't really see anything! i mean like i can understand the point that it's suppose to be dark and stuff but a bit more lights would be much better...overall the trip was fun and interesting...i mean the zoo in canada have the animals all locked up in a steel cage and the animals here are let free to roam around! i'll have some pix of the zoo up for y'all. shortly when i have time to get them from frances.

let's see...oh yes today at work..
it wasn't that busy so i took the oppoetunity to practice my 'people' skills hahaha...i now have more confidence in promoting wines and all..haha! i sold 1 bottle of red wine and 4 glasses of the promo wine we have at Petals! it was kind of tiring cuz i had to walk back and forth and kind of 'follow-up' on the customers who bought wine..i DON'T have to do this..but it makes the experience bettter right? haha i hope so lol!

anyways i'm off to bed...i have a FULL shift cuz i need to make up for the day i skipped work to go for steamboat hahaha....8am - 11pm...i'm a DEAD man sniff sniff!

take care peace!

Venting!

what a good day!!

first off: went to rosette today for dinner (another shatec restaurant, which i will be attached to soon)...anywyas...me, eunice, john, jessica, alan and janice went and well me and alan ordered all the table side service stuff..which basically means...prepare caesar salad in front of you.guest, flambe lobster bisque soup and flambe the black pepper steak! the only thing we didn't order was the crepe suzette...damn, i kinda regret lol! <---it was a GOOD day and a GOOD experience to see what lies ahead for me! Yuri did the caesar salad, liang did the lobster bisque and elliott did the black pepper steak...GOOD JOB GUYS...IT WAS GREAT...SERIOUS!!

...after...me and alan waited for liang at the 7-11 around the corner...then we joined shaun, vu, yuri, and grace for a drink at the Kopitiam...DAMN DAMN DAMN!! who would have known we had SO much shit to vent out! i mean we ranted and ranted about everything and everyone lol...well mosdtly about the ppl in out school haha! if it didn't start to rain...i think we'd still be there bitchin' our lungs out! ... it was a good night...it kind of joined the A and B class together...!
it's always good to know more friends..right? Right!!

well i'm drinking my beer, havin' a smoke so i'm off to watch some tv! haha! peace y'all...til next time..!

STEAMBOAT!!

muhahahaha...didn't go to work today...WHY U ASK??
well let me tell u see...this is what happened...

i went for STRAMBOAT..hehe!! i was SUPPOSE to work mid-shift today...but i really really really really wanted to go for steamboat!! so, me, rai, shalini, amanda, jessica, john, alex, zi jing and jeanie went to bugis for steamboat, after they finished work of coarse! ... WAS IT WORTH IT U SAY??? HELL YA!!!!!! it was good going out w/ almost the whole petals crew for dinner, too bad sarah, brandon and kerine couldn't make it! i mean i DID spend 23 dollars for my MC and i have to do a 8hr make up BUT the time spent to get to know some new ppl was all worth it! i ate until i wanted to puke...let's just say it felt like eating a whole cow to urself and u needed a tow truck to tow u around! haha!

anyways..gotta sleep...morning shift tmr @ 8:15am...argh!
peace!!

SiaN!

...what a week! tmr's another day for a week of FREE FUCKING LABOUR!!! lol! i mean damn...the school should pay us an incentive or transport fees or something, rather then giving us a staff meal that's UNEDIBLE and SO FUCKING SHITTY!!!! damn ppl r so smart to get bloody students to work for free in their restaurants!! argh..i wish i was smart enough to have even thought about an idea like that!!

anyways!!!!! went to Sembawang w/ liang and peggy to chill! nothing special..we spent like 90 bucks on LUNCH!!!! who the hell pays that much for lunch? lol and it was at DELIFRANCE...out of all places lol! only 3 idiots would! haha! kidding!

well i'm off to bed y'all got morning shift tmr...sian!
peace!

w00t w00t!!

...today was a GOOD GOOD day!! muhahahaha

first...a table of 4 women came in! they were very friendly and fun to talk with...we cracked jokes and all making work SO SO SO much more fun!! they ordered a bottle of red wine...by the time the meal ended some of them were quite buzzed...atleast that's what it looked like lol! FOR SOME ODD REASON...THEY GOT MY PHONE NUMBER!!!! (thx kerine) lol! they gave it back though BUT i don't know if they saved it on their cells...hm...! lol

secondly!!! a table of 3 came in...2 guests were from new zealand and the other was a local! they were quite unpleased with some of the staff but they were quite happy with for some reason lol..! they're in the service industry themselves and they said we should pay more attention to female patrons..! i guess cuz most of us are still new and still a bit nervous when we do service so sometimes we may forget or oversee this basic procedure of serving female guests first...ANYWAYS...
i got a 10 dollar tip from them muhahahaha!
i treated kerine and sarah to cake cuz kerine was my waitress for the night and sarah..well sarah's juat a pig..hahaha kidding kidding!! she was the headwaitress so ya..my 'boss' for the day haha!

anyways i'm out..peace!

...

finally!! i have a day off...6 days of free-labour a week is killer! i mean if we got an incentive to do this attachment for shatec, everyone would have a different perspective on the whole idea! YES! it's good for the training and all, but it's expensive to pay for the travel to get there! i mean 1 day i use about 3 to 4 dollars on transport! on the brightside though...we get a free meal, BUT BUT BUT the meals SUCK NUTS!!! lol!

anyways..lastnight was our 'gathering' night...this means every sat. night we will be going down to superstar to talk shit, drink and sing! since we don't see each other for 6 days straight and this attachment has to go on for 3 months so this is the only time we may be able to meet and chill!
it was nice to see everyone again lastnight and boy oh boy were there stories to tell...hahaha!

i'll blog again next time...peace y'all...