school, cny and valentines!

I don't know what's going on with me these days.

I can't seem to find the strength to go to school anymore. Everyweek since school started, i've been absent atleast 1 day of the week. I may be able to explain for the past 2 weeks, but the rest is unexplainable. Maybe i'm still stuck on the holiday moods from december.

All i know is that, this semester is getting all fucked up, because of my lack of responsibilities!

As for the past 2 weeks, something has been on my mind and in my heart. I don't want to say the issues, and plz don't come asking me, 'what's wrong.' when or if, i want to discuss the issues, i shall seek help on my own.

I need to get back on my feet and start realising again, what i want from my life. I need to do some heavy reflection! I hope i can resolve as many issues within the Chinese New Year period!

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Chinese new years is around the corner.

Gong Hey Fat Choi/Gong Xi Fa Cai

to the chinese community.

I really hate CNY! the music, the red and the crowds...all put together make me sick. I love the red packets (haha) but i hate most of the traditions that come with it. I hate the fact that you have to buy new clothes, visit almost everyone and listen to that horrible chinese music.

Though I dislike CNY, i'm not the type to ruin it for all. I will still follow some of the traditions, such as, going to visit family and friends, just to bring up some of the festive spirits around me.

I'm too westernized already. things like this never bring me any excitement. i'm never happy for cny at all!

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Happy Valentines day to all you couples!

Happy Anti-Valentines to all those who are single or dislike valentines!

AGAIN! i feel valentines day is day for retail shops, flower shops and restaurants to jack up their prices and earn big bucks from poor ppl!

To me it's a gimmick, but there's no chice, in order to please your loved ones, you must do something sweet and nice for them.

Out of 365 days a year, are we limited to show how much we care and love for someone on 1 day out of the year? Does this give us the right, not to go for a romantic dinner, give a gift of love and spend a night together for the rest of the year? it's weird that people will go all out for 1 day and forget about the rest of the 364 days that are left. think about that.

Love should be shown everyday for every second, not just for 1 day!

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anyways,

I feel like i'm an anti-everything when it comes to festivals and special occassions. Though it may be true, never fear, i will never spoil the moment for the people around me!

I'm sorry to Mat, for cancelling this day. I really wanted to take you out for dinner tonight, but something came up, Sorry!


I'm out peace!