tired of everything!

[Song] Marques Houston - I Can Be The One

i'm so tired of everything!

been doing so many projects and assignments...i just can't seem to focus on what's important to me! juggling time has never been so difficult! the ppl around me seem to have it so easy..why am i stressing?

I believe most of this stress is because i'm putting alot of un-neccessary weight on my shoulders. The mentality of being a group 'leader' gets my nerves all rattled up. For instance, i've got a video to compile in less than 1 week. this video will display our final year project, from head to toe. I wanna make it memorable for me and my fellow classmates. This 1 video has already put me in the slumps. I took up the responsibility of handling our Econs project and Principle of Communication project...the econs took me 5 hrs to compile and edit..god knows how long it will take to write up 2,500 word essay for our communication project. On top of that, i gotta do a 1000+ word individual essay...all by dec. 1st 2006! argh...1 word...STRESSED!

Besides trying to juggle my time...my mind is filled with love issues, yet again! feelings i thought have left my mind, body and soul seem to be on the rise again. what to do? there's no time to pursue it, no money to do anything and just too much things going on in my life to care. Hopefully, this will help me take my mind off things...maybe not..but whatever the outcome...i'm kind of glad i feel this way. <--you may not understand what i'm trying to say, cuz i sure as hell don't!

on other, more 'happy' notes..

went to rio's house on fri night! He was most generous in opening his home to our classmates for a thanksgiving dinner! his house is HUGE...i've only lived in a house like his twice in canada, and they didn't last more than a year..so sad! but the dinner really brought back memories of canada, friends and old-times. I seriously...no doubt about it..wanted to burst into tears after seeings the turkeys butt..i guess besides relationships, school and time management...i'm getting a tad home sick as well.

did i mention he has a karaoke system in his house? it seems like one of those from a KTV haha! so advanced...he said it cost like 500 bucks..my jaw dropped in shock!

I lost 20 bucks in show hand w/ thomas, elliott, zeke, nelson and john...so sad...i wanted to teach them how to play texas hold 'em ..but if i'm not wrong, the majority wanted to play show hand..i miss texas hold 'em days..damn..thinking about it is getting me worked up, argh!

I feel so sensitive to minor issues right now..maybe cuz my body is in shock. i've just completed HALF of the video conversions for the video, totalling 8hrs of work...i still got quite a bit of data to finish...damn!

THX rio for everything...it was much appreciated! it was a great night of chilling, drinking and singing haha!

...fuck it..pix time...




MmMm...wonderful!



another view



It tasted..so good! damn!



the turkey and the butt that almost made me cry haha!



i miss those BIG ass turkeys u find in canada lol!



This hat can actually be folded into a fan lol!

not much

....what can i say...i mean after the event..everything is suppose to be less stressful right?

well i guess i was wrong...

after the event...alot of unknown 'hatred' is going around! alot of things seem to be going wrong. there's just so much beef and no one is really aware of it! starting to think if there is anyone hiding anything from me!

if there is..let me know and we can talk it out like adults! drama, drama, drama! argh..! i just wished everyone could just get along! i mean..i just can't stand the hate anymore..i use to be one of those ppl, but i just started seeing things different after some issues happened in my life! i'm not judging ppl for what they think or believe..i'm just saying that life is never a box of chocolates. there will always be problems, especially when we head out to attachment/work. the real world is so much more cruel..i've seen it and experienced it! no one will ever be satisfied, so isn't it best if ppl can just remain happy? and put less stress and anger upon yourself?

i believe everyone put in some kind of effort..some may have put in alot more than others..but it just goes to show, who cares and who takes the initiative! it's those without intitiative and willingness to help that get left behind, so why worry for them..just think of your own benefits.

just some toughts...you don't to take it serious if you think i'm wrong or i'm being selfish!

anyhoo...on to brighter notes...

this friday our class has been invited to Rio's house for thanksgiving dinner! WOOHOOO i'm so damn fucking excitied! i love going to his place haha! i asked if his sister was gonna be there and he said no...oh so sad! haha!

went out to thomas's b-day on fri night! drank and chatted at suba! damn..i really needed that night! it felt so good just to sit back, relax and have a alcoholic beverage! mmm...damn soothing!

went out with mat on sunday! headed to chomp chomp...haha WE have fallen in love with that place hahaha! the food is just so good! best part is...we can head down to Ice Cube! the ice-cream is just to die for! i mean seriously! whoever thought of adding liquor to ice cream is a fucking genious haha!

not much planned for the weekend...i'm just swarmed with project work! i hope i can it over and done with a.s.a.p.!

...PIX time...!



Carrying my new chair from amy's house! lol! it cost
S$160 but it was ALL worth it! it's so damn fucking comfortable!



pulling dumb faces at serangoon garden!



Ice Cube Dessert! hm....so goooooood!



Thomas the birthday boy...haha look at the liqor!

FINALLY the Event is OVER!

MOMMY...it's OVER!!!!!!!!

finally, we have concluded the end of our 'Asian Jamboree!' After, 8 weeks of long preparations, sub-events and long ass meeting hours...we came up with a event, i would say a success!

though i still believe our flair workshop was a much more better success...we knew how much work, efforts and dedication it took to bring this final event to a closure! so, no matter how much flaws, errors or complains there are..we know deep down, we tried our best and that it was the teamwork and unity that made this event such a memorable one!

I belive a lot of my classmates have grown and matured after these 8 weeks of struggle. I can tell that a lot of them really poured their hearts and souls into this project!

So to that...DHM0405 A CONGRATULATIONS on a JOB WELL DONE!!!!!

we couldn't have done it without everyones support and hard work! give yourself a pat on the back! haha!

to the programs team: sorry for not guiding you all during the preparations. i know there were alot of communication problems and i'm sorry! truely! but i couldn't have done it without you, so once again! THANK YOU!

PICTURE TIME!!! (there are alot of footage but i can't display them all cuz i haven't received them yet and well i'm pretty sure you wouldn't wanna see them all anyways! haha!)



Prepaing for the event!



Alot of ppl came to the event!



Yes...we have a crowd!



Winner of the Beauty Pageant! AND this girl can really eat spicy food!



haha so..how do we look? weird right? lol!

great movie

[SONG] Justin Lo - Kong

Just a short update on this movie i just finished watching...

I just downloaded a great movie called 'Love @ First Sight' By: Alex Fong, Justin Lo and Kary Ng! It's a Hong kong flick and there hasn't been one like this for awhile, atleast to my knowledge!

It was so good...i loved it! it's a bit sassy though, but the meaning was there and the music just so good! i just loved the combination! i'm so hoping to see a part 2 to this movie!

This song is performed by Justin Lo from the movie! the whole OST is pretty good...if u like canto music, go and download the album yourself, or maybe if i get enough requests i'll upload it for you guys!

here's the poster...



that's it..just wanted to tell u bout my midnight movie experience @ home lol!

it's been long

I know it's been along time since i made a post...I'm sorry.. truely sorry from the bottom of my heart!

now that's out of the fucking way!

I've been fucking busy as hell! i SERIOUSLY...just wanna sleep all day, watch tv, eat, shit and sleep again! BUT NOOOO...why why why, u ask...

LET ME TELL U!!!!

it's all because of 1 thing..that's right only 1 thing is making my nerves rattle...and that is...SCHOOL! argh!!

projects this, projects that...! FINE give us projects..it's not a big deal..IF UR PROJECTS WEREN'T SO FUCKING LARGE AND DETAILED!! argh!

...okay enough venting on that..!

sat - went to chinatown with cao yan and susanna to pick up souvenirs for our cultural fair...then we went to jessica's b-day at superstar...it was so good! a wicked time to relax with friends and drink!

sun - went to Sengkang! suppose to meet wei ching...but she wasn't feeling so well, so ya..me liang, thomas and elliott ended up going to Chomp Chomp for dinner and then headed to Ice cube for dessert..it was a good day!

Mon - went to Aisah's house for Hari Raya! hehe..it's been 1 year since i went there and the food was amazing! thx aisah if ur reading this!

the rest of the week was boring as usual...

oh yes. Thurs. went to pick up items for the cultural fair...FUCK MAN!! there are so many! me and wan ling had a HARD ASS FUCKING tIME COLLECTING THAT SHIT, YO!
but it's what we gotta do for the team..so i guess i shouldn't be bitching so much!

PIX TIME...ENJOY!



@ the Jap. Cultural centre...Trying to act like the statue! lol!



so..do i look like a emperor from china? muhahaha!



John says "HAPPY B-DAY, JES"



Chillin' at superstar on Jes' B-Day...



mmm...BEER!! haha!



@ Aisah's House looking dumb! lol!



the wonderful feast at chomp chomp!



the exquisite desserts at ice cube...MMM..so delcious!

I KNOW!

Sorry sorry sorry...i know i haven't been updating frequently and i keep saying i will try...but i really can't seem to find the time! MY BAD y'all!

anyhoo...not much is happening these days...just stress, stress and well, more stress! lol!

we had our Flair Workshop on Friday...which was a huge success! GREAT JOB EVERYONE!! about 101paz showed up for the amazing show..the response seemed...well..EXCELLENT i think would be appropiate!

things i've done..
- went to Rai's for Deepavali
- did a outside catering job at vivo city
- went to the IMF appreciation dinner
- went to dragon fly @ St. James Power Station

That's pretty much my boring life..not much else to say..but do enjoy the pix...



Decorative wall @ dragon fly.



Dragon fly...bar view



Live band @ dragon fly...Mando-pop...it sucked..but they
were good lol!



Outside catering job @ vivo city.



Expensive italian water...all taste the same lol!



Left over canapes @ the fucntion...mmm...so good!



Me and Sam @ MOS!



Us again!



Me, Zeke and Honey at MOS!



Rai and I during Deepavali..!



Me and June @ the IMF Appreciation Dinner!



Vanus and Me @ the IMF Appreciation Dinner!



Class w/ Flairers..after our flair workshop!

friendster

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!

anyone having problems with logging into friendster?!?!?!?

it says my fucking e-mail isn't valid ... but i can still see my profile there!!

argh!!

argh....what a fucking week man!

i wish i could find the time to update more but it seems like i never have the time!

first of all...there will be no pix..too lazy to upload and well..there just isn't much to show haha! i will be uploading some videos on youtube soon, so look out for that!

let's see....where to start...

tues. went to the IMF appreciation dinner at the new Vivo City at Harbourfront. It's huge..damn..and they even have a Gap store now..woohoo! anyhoo...the prime minister, Mr. Lee Hsein Loong came down to give a quick speech. we were situated at an outside auditorium. There was performances by Hady Mirza (SG idol), belly dancers etc. When it was time to eat...everything went crazy. From up top, it looked like a bunch of ants scouring the buffet lines and all! We decided to go to the Food Republic, with the coupons they gave us we can redeem a certain type of food from the stalls. of course, we couldn't find anywhere to sit so we decided to kneel in front of a table. It was so pathetic! the whole night sucked! EXCEPT...

that me, elliott, thomas and alan headed down to DragonFly at the newly renovated St. James Power Station. It's a beautiful place, but it's still in the midst of renovation. I believe only 2 outlets are opened at the time, so we decided to go to the mando-pop one. Obviously i didn't know what ppl were singing and all, but the atmosphere and ecor was beautiful. There's a live band at the first level, karaoke lounge on the second and karaoke rooms on the third.

hm...FRIDAY!! hahahaha! omg!

we had a HOD meeting for our convention and exhibition project. it lasted a total of 4 hrs! fuck man..i never would've thought that it would last so long! it was quite productive, if you ask me.
After, i had to rush down to Tampines to meet up with Thomas for a dance ensemble concert. My friend, Xiao Pei, invited me to go watch. It was a great show. The effort was there and the talent was exquisite. I LOVED the show! beautiful.

after that me and thomas headed to MOS for a night of fun fun fun! haha! it was Kerine's b-day and if i'm not wrong...quite a number of them were drunk before i reached haha. Got home around 4am and was bitching cuz i needed to get up early for Rai's Deepavali thing.

then comes sat..

woke up at like 10:30am to head to Farrer Park to meet up with Rai. He invited a few of us to his house for Deepavali (Indian new year). Some didn't make it cuz of late partying and such so only me, adriano, john, jes, paulina, nelson, farhan and jude made it! the food his mom preped was EXCELLENT! SPICY..BUT GGGGOOOOOOOOOODDDD!!! haha! i loved it..thx Rai for the invite and the food..i had a good time!

Got home early after that..around 3 something or 4...did laundry, cleaning and eatch 10min of TV before falling asleep...it was about 6pm if i'm not wrong..and i woke up sunday monring at 11:30am! hahaha HOLY SHIT!!! i'm such a fucking pig lol!

now on to sun.

ya..that's right...i'm updating my blog, with no plans. All i know is i gotta do a timeline, meeting minutes and a production schedule...all by monday! damn! i'm so lazy and i'm so tired! lol..lucily the timeline and minutes are quite easy to do...but i don't know how to start on the prduction schedule. lol...i'm doomed!

anyhoo...boring post..will find time to add pix and vidz...peace!

new week!

[SONG] Christian Bautista - Since I Found You...

alright where to start...i know i haven't been updating very frequently..sorry folks!

hm..ah yes...

sun. mat came over and we had a so-called movie marathon...it was great just to rot in front of the tv haha! after met with alan and went to Rialto to eat dinner! OMG the food is just to die for! it's a really homie feeling in there, so it really adds to their asthetic..! after went down to Bar Stop for a drink and visited Vanus at work! what a day of relaxtion and great food! haha!

on wed. i went to amy's house for dinner..MmMmMm...her mom is probably the best cook i know! damn..she can make simple things tast, OH! so good! after dinner...me, jes, jas, xiu, amy and amanda started to pack tidbits. The tidbits are meant to be sold to make a captial for our C&E project...ALAN!!! was watching us...due to over eating! shame shame shame! hahaha! jokes!

Thurs. night, me, elliott, rai, thomas, zeke and may, went down to Rosette for dinner! Rosette is 1 of the restaurants i was attached to about 3 or 4 months ago..anyhoo, I had the duck breast, and might i add that it was SO delicious! we practically ordered all the table side service...which includes..caesar salad, lob. bisque and crepe suzette...too bad no one ordered black pepper steak haha! thx to wei ching and michelle for doing a great job! oh, and it was great to see rouling and yvonne again after so many months haha!

Fri. went to have a meeting at the Student Education Services Centre to talk about sponsorship for our C&E project! too bad, i don't think they can sponsor us money..boo! it's gonna take a long time to process the proposal and everything, so by the time that happens..our project would have been long over! so instead they will sponsor us door gifts and what nots..! after i went down to Suba to find elliott to discuss some issues about our upcoming event.

After the meeting, i went to Frances' house for steamboat. WOOHOO!!! it was so GOOD!!!! i never fail to enjoy myself when i'm at her place! too bad it was only me, liang and frances..u know the saying..the more the merrier right? haha! after that i went down to Suba AGAIN! me, liang and zeke! HOLY FUCK!! it was a big mistake! drank so much beer with the staff and manager! holy shit, they are all crazy! i puked 4 times the whole night! i sabotaged zek by telling them he's the best drinker in shatec! haha! he got wased..i hope he's not angry with me lol! i had to cut the night a bit short cuz my pops called me! fucker ruined the night! though i was already dying but argh..i'm lost for words! i had to reach home asap to give him my bank account number so he can deposit money to me! seems like he is in the states so that's why he couldn't bank it in like normal! fuck! but on a brighter note...i'm getting money, so ya! yippie!!

anyways..i stayed home today and watched a shit load of dvds! haha! i feel like such a pig..i wasted the whole day on the chair, OMG!

so that's my week...here's some pix to entice everyones views! enjoy..! Oh..there's a surprise video link after..u guys may love it! haha!



Rialto's Special



Cream of Wild Mushroom Soup..this is SO good!



Smoked Salmon with Penne Pasta and Cream Sauce!
DELICIOUS!!



haha..i look so fake! but it was a good day!



uh ya..hm..!



This is what amy's mom preped for us! she's the bomb!



a view of Suba in the day! i was bored waiting for elliott haha!



Frances' house for Steamboat!



it's damn SPICY!! but it's SO good! mmm...



Rai at Rosette!



My official OSA biz card lol!

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4934548133750533925

Click the link to see...Toronto's Finest, Caloyn Savages' B-Day Party! she's so hot!
(I didn't want to out the embed code cuz it seemed to lag a bit!)

stressed!!

[SONG] BBMak - Ghost of You and Me

what to say, what to say..

it's been the second week of school and i'm all stressed up already! can't wait til december, when i can get a whole month to rot myself to death!

on monday..i got fined S$200.00 for littering. HOLY FUCK! i mean if it was like 50 bux or something, i wouldn't be so pissed! I threw a cig. butt on the floor when i saw my bus come. 3 guys..that's right 3 guys...surrounded me when i was just about to board the bus. if i wanted to run, i wouldn't get far...i mean i couldn't even pass them. omg! the government has nothing better to do but hire these ppl to go aound and catch litterers. i thought they wanted to rob me or something and i was just about to punch the guy that blocked me. luckily he took out his badge before anything happened. i should know better that no one in singapore would actually rob someone at a bus interchange during the day. i was so pissed when the fuckers gave me the ticket! argh!!

i paid my phone bills, internet and that bloody fucking fine today..which now leads richie to have absolutely nothing for the weekend!!!!!!

on to other news....

i'm so stressed from school and there seems to be so much fucking drama recently.

friends becoming enemies, ppl getting angry over small shit and ppl getting bitter over issues that are just not worth the time! ppl make mistakes, ppl do things u may not like..but it doesn't mean that u don't! think of things from other ppls point of view before finalizing a decision to get angry or hate someone!

though none of these problems are towards me, but it's affecting the ppl around. i want to help and make things better; be the peacemaker! BUT THERE'S JUST NO SPACE IN MY LIFE to do so right now..

convention and exhibition project stressing me out...trying to make the fucked up theme as memorable as possible, fur both local and international students!

with 3 more projects on top of that, i just can't seem to handle my own life. so why do i get the feeling that i have to solve other ppls problems? i can't manage myself for christ sakes! argh! STRESS STRESS AND MORE STRESS!!!!

on a brighter note...

i traded in my old phone for a .... hahahaha... K800i! my W800i that my dad gave me when he was in singapore was worth S$280! the plan i'm currently on has a promotion of S$120 credit...so i walked out with the phone without paying 1 single fucking cent! hahahahahahahha! on top of that, i had a extra S$30 credit! wooo!

richie's happy with his new phone, stressed about school and trying to make things right between friends and well...as normal....his love life sucks! so...

richie may, most likely, drop dead one day or never wake up from his sleep! hahahaha that would make him feel, oh! so happy! no worries and no stress! oh and most importantly..no troubles; especially TICKET/FINE troubles!

well later i'll be headed down to eunice's house! it's GAME DAY!!!! wooohooo!! hahahaha! so excited! my time to de-stress and forget about everything for a few hours! can't wait! i hope we have a good fucking time!

anyhoo...some pix..




Crew at Devil's bar, a few weeks back!



Richie's balling a new K800i 3g phonewith 3.2 megapixel camera,
bluetooth, mp3 and so on and so on..RESPECT! word! haha!

the past weeks

What a week! i mean damn!

Firstly, i couldn't wake up ytd for school. I woke up at around 11 something and i just freaked! besides not going to school ytd, i didn't even go today! i got fucking diarrhea...when i was getting ready for school i had the shits 3 times! i just said fuck it, i'm going to bed again!

Secondly, ytd when i was on my way to school for a meeting, i got a ticket (fined) for littering! OMFG!!! THIS IS SUCH A BAD YR FOR ME! I threw a cigarette butt on the floor at the Bukit Batok Interchange and 3 NEA guys came and surrounded me! jeez, like these guys have nothing better to do...it took 3 guys to stop me cuz i littered...imagine if i robbed a store, the whole police force would come down haha!anyways, the fine was S$200! fuck fuck fuck...that's so steep for a first offence! jeez...if it was like 50 bux it would be alright! damn...

On to other news from last week...

Oh yes..went to Eunice's house on thurs. to celebrate her b-day (pix below). It was so much fun! haha...the food her mom cooked was amazing, the 4 uncle (elliott, thomas, doug and john) played MJ, and the rest (Liang, Eunice, Jan, Alan, Chansey) played MONOPOLY! hahaha i haven't played for so long...it so oh! so entertaining! then there was 1 left behind...jessica! we call her the all-rounder cuz she was wandering the whole time! she even took out an english book to read! hahaha! freak lol!

Sat. went to butterfactory near MS! FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY! found a club that plays hip-hop and underground! beautiful! loved the atomosphere, the music and the crowd! it's my new place to go, even if i go alone hahaha!
around 1 something..the club got bridged! it sucked cuz we had to wait outside for awhile..they were checking the building capacity! and of course, they were overloaded! so liang and I gave up and decided to go! elliott and his friends remained while we went for bak kut teh! haha!


kk pics times! enjoy..not much to show! i'll try and update more frequently now..! hope! lol!




IMF GROUP..Miss you guys! i miss all the fun we had
talking shit! haha!



4 Uncles playing Mahjong! haha!



Old Skool, Singapore VER. MONOPOLY! lol! so sick!



I went bankrupt within minutes of playing...thx chansey
and jan for trying to keep me in the game! i still owe
u guys over 1 thousand monopoly money haha!