24

[SONG] New Kids on The Block - Stare At You

So...there's about 3 days til my b-day and well...all i feel is OLD!

i mean 24 is still young right? right? oh god..

However, working and trying to manage time is making me age 100 times faster then most. I can feel my bones starting to rot and mold all at the same time. It's amazing how time catches up with you. Now i understand why my mom was always so tired from working. Up until i was 21, i felt that i had the energy to do whatever, whenever! now it's all my what time will i get to hit the bed and how much sleep will i have before i have to get up.

I wish i was as energetic as i was before, but i'm not and that's a fact i'm going to have to live with!!

I'm going to start doing some exercises' at home...nothing big and fancy - just small ones to keep my muscles stronger and my body a bit more fit. I know it's funny, especially coming from me (HAHA), but it's something i'm going to have to do if i wanna keep up with time. They say the more you exercise the longer your stamina, so i'm gonna give it a wift and see how it goes.

On thursday, when i officially become 24, I see a world and a life that is unchanged. Living the way i do and doing the things i do makes me wonder what more can come out of this life. Besides starting a family and growing old, there isn't much left. I have dreams and wishes but how much of it will come true and how much of it will be accomplished? It's hard to follow a dream and i truly admire those that do!! A lot of sacrificing and hard work is what drives most people to chase what they want...as for me, i prefer to live a simple life rather then chasing something that may be unrealistic.

Life...what does it mean? growing old and having a family? living each day like it was the last? dreaming about something that will not happen? going about a regular joe's lifestyle? no one knows for sure. I guess each individual has to come up with their own answer.

For me, it's growing old and having a nice family to return to each and every day. Having a wife that cares and awaits my arrival. Having a nice cooked meal when i walk through the door. A typical story book, tv drama kind of life. Nothing fancy dancy about the whole thing. Just a normal and fruitful life!

24..what a number. It makes you think and realize! looking back at my past and the experiences i have gained really makes me grateful. I bring me with so much learnings and experiences that one may have never gone through. It is something that i will carry forth with me. Once i pass the mark of 24, everything will start to shift and turn for the better of my future. No more looking back and thinking what i should have done instead, now it's all about looking forward and thinking about what i should do, how to do it and going for it!

It funny how most people chase a dream after they realize they've aged. Not wanting to waste their lives as a hag and bum. It's hitting me slowly and i believe it's time to start going forth and becoming someone i never pictured myself to be in the past!

think about it...i sure do, every morning on the train to work! i've come up with a solution that only i will bare within me! good luck to all your soul searching! it will be quite a journey ahead!

peace!