christian...

went to watch the omen and just my luck ytd with samantha..lol just my luck is so funny...though it's quite lame it's still entertaining lol...today i'm gonna go to superstar to meet up with some of the outet ppl, some what of a good bye party..hope it will be fun....get drunk? let's hope so hahaha!


on to other stories... LOOK BELOW....



aww..isn't the boy so cute? no no, it's not mine...he's my god-son...and the hottie next to him is the mom...isn't she such a milf?? hahaha

stella: miss u so much..seems like i've been missing so much in ur life..i really wish i could have been there but there is just some stuff i have to do, i hope u understand...christian has grown so much..he's so cute and looks so healthy..ur doing a great job and don't let anyone tell u different...i love u babes..hope to see u very soon..take care hun...!

now back to the last post about finding friends...

after much thoughts and contemplating, i've come to the conclusion of ppl are just scared to meet new ppl. if they have no link (eg. in the same class, work together etc.) they won't be bothered to further a relationship as friends, this goes for both man and woman, in general! like i said in the last post, ppl always think that u want more out of them, then just to be friends! i don't know if it's cuz i'm from a western country that i'm more open to society whereas the asian society is more self-consious or hidden. i've noticed that western lifestyle is very open to new and bright ideas, whereas asian lifestyle's are still living in the past. i mean when was the last time u could just ask someone, such as a acquaintance (i mean u still have a semi-link between each other) to go out for dinner, get a phone number or just watch a movie...just something to strenghten a bond? become a 'friend' maybe this 'acquaintance' could end up being ur best friend, hearing ear or just a common friendship u coul cherish! i've been trying so hard to make more friends, helping ppl around me, always going an extra mile for ppl but in the end i'm still left with holes..i just want to be able to find someone i can talk to in the time of need, call someone to eat diner with or just chill at a park to talk etc. i have some close friends but sometimes u just need outsiders, u know what i mean?
trying to make friends is really a mission...trying to get a phone number, get someone out for dinner or just trying to have someone to talk to is near to impossible in my life. maybe it's just my luck or maybe i'm just destined to this life...whatever it is...i pray to u god to help me and allow me to find more friends to share my joys and happiness!

later y'all!

holidays

FINALLY I'M ON MY FIRST DAY OF MY 11 DAY HOLIDAY!!!!!! w00t!!!!

i'm so fucking happy that i don't need to set my alarm for 4:45am anymore!!!! OMG the feeling is so amazing hahaha!

anyways..liang liang is leaving back to china for 2 weeks tmr...i'm gonna miss her..LIANG U BETTER BUY ME ALOT ALOT OF FOOD hahahaha!

...have u ever noticed it's so hard to initiate a conversation with someone u wish to make friends with? i mean if u approach someone they probably think ur trying to hit on them or get in their fucking pants! i mean i've been trying to make more friends but it seems like god isn't allowing me to...ppl always automatically assume that u want more then to be just friends...it's so hard finding a GOOD friend these days it's also hard trying to keep the ones that ur not so close with! i love hanging with a big group but it's just so hard finding ppl to add into the 'circle!' anyways...i don't even know what i'm really trying to say...i guess i'm just bitching about not being able to find more friends..i don't know! ah fuck it!

i'm out peace!

sat

let's see here now...

friday: went to ANOTHER FUCKING SAFTI!!!!! but this time it was more relaxed...i didn't have to stay late and i didn't have to carry much...most of the time we just supervised the wash-up and make sure everything was going smoothly...on the PLUS side i get a extra off day...my attachment is suppose to finish this coming sat. but i got so many OFF IN LIEUS that i finish this wed. hahahahahah...so happy...i have a 11 day holiday...w00t!

sat: went to superstar for villies b-day...she was so shocked when we went in singing happy b-day with a HUGE fucking 1.5kg heart shaped cake bought by eunice...mmmm it was oh so delicious! hahaha! around 4am we went to eat at this 24hr coffee shop...we had curry fish head at 4am..WOW...it was so damn nice, eating and talking shit til about 5:45am .. got home around 6 am and slept like a hog til this afternoon!

anyways..not much happened last week..just wanna wish villies another happy b-day and i hope that u have many more great memories to come!

peace!

busy

sorry everyone...been a bit busy to update..

anyways..not much happened...i'm going on my third week at rosette...which means i'll be finished in 2 weeks time...CAN'T WAIT!!! haha! i'm so happy that i can start my pathetic 1 week holiday soon..!

lastnight i went to Ministry of Sound w. liang, cherry, frances, vu, eleanor and elliott...got home around 7am haha...damn damn tired..i seriously don't understand why clubs don't have bigger RnB/Hip-Hop rooms...i mean MOS has a main room playing trance/house, a small room for retro/old-skool and a so called medium room i guess playing RnB/hip-hop...the RnB/hip-hop room is always crowded...have they thought of making it bigger? they just don't have the capacity and they don't want to cater to the market...oh well..what to do...overall it was a pretty good night...

i'im starting to miss OCBC alittle...i miss the scenaric views from the 33rd story...i miss the exquiste bar and the SFTs..i DON'T miss all the carrying and lifting though haha..

here are some pix from OCBC...











that's all folks...
enjoy the song...i think it's the best song for anyone that's in love with or crushing on someone...peace y'all!

[lyrics: 112-god knows]

Baby tell me why
why do you question
all this love that I have for you
if you look into my eyes
and make an exception
I will show you love like no one before
put your trust in me
allow me to be that
baby give me your hand to hold
cause the feelings that I have
are so complicated that words cannot explain there is only one who knows

Only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows

Baby tell me what
what is the reason
one good reason you're so insecure
cause after all that I have done
I think you should know by now
girl im down for you and the love I have is pure
I wanna help you understand
just how I feel for you
you're the one that I can't let go
because the feeling that I have
are so complicated that words cannot explain there is only one who knows

Only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart(Speak to my heart)
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what God knows

and all of my lonely days
only God knows i'm lonely
and all my sleepless night (only God sees me crying)
and everytime I think of you
only God can read my mind (he reads my mind)
God knows I tried
if you understand
heaven knows I miss you girl
only God can see how much
cause everytime you go away (I long for your touch)
now when I say I love you girl
only God sees my heart (he sees my heart)
he sees my heart

only God knows
how much I love you
God sees my heart (girl you know that he sees my heart)
and that he cares about you,(and he cares)
God knows (yes he does)
that i'm thinking of you (and im thinking of you)
and i'm longing for you
how i wish that you knew what god knows (yes he does)
how much I love you
God sees my heart
and that he cares about you
God knows
that i'm thinking of you
and i'm longing for you
how wish that you knew what God knows


la la la da da la la la
i'm thinking of you l
a la la da da la la la
how I wish that you knew

SAFTI

alright well here's the story...i was assigned to go to banquet on friday...i wanted to skip it and take a medical leave BUT i was tempted not too! if i attend the banquet function i would receive an extra off day and i get to save money on seeing the doctor...good right? well...here's what happened!

the reason i wanted to take a medical leave on friday was because of this event called 'Safti' it's a event held almost every 2 to 3 months for the soldiers who have completed their NS (national service)...NS is compulsory for ALL singaporeans. This function consists of about 500 pax! as u can imagine the amount of students needed to cater to such a function. LUCKILY, my batch has done service for Safti and the call-back to banquet was to assist in any way possible!

so 5 of us from rosette; me, frances, jason, charlize and zeke. OCBC; mei chew, honey, meng jing and lynn were called back. me, jason, zeke, frances, lynn and honey had to handle the pantry area were we distribute wine, port sherry, coke, sparkling grape juice, bread and other miscellaneous items that were needed to run the operations. Doesn't sound that bad right?

WELL...here's the problem...

me, zeke, jason and fidarous had to do the loading and unloading of items. remember it's 500 pax, so you can imagine the amount of cutlery, plates, glassware, linen, beverages, trays and other items needed to run the operation! DAMN DAMN DAMN!! it was so tiring doing it the first time...imagine doing it THREE, that's right THREE times in one day: everytime my shirt got soaked in sweat, singapore weather just adds to the fucking problem! jason and zeke only did it twice cuz they left at around 10:30pm...i could have left to but i didn't have to report for work the next day so i volunteered to stay behind and help the SFT, i felt bad cuz there wasn't much ppl helping him to start with.

so we get back to school at around 12pm...unloaded the truck, smoked for awhile and started to work again! re-organizing the banquet store was like hell cuz it's so small. wash-up was busy with the cleaning, just basically everyone had something to do. i was sorting out the different glassware...it took about 1 hour to complete...by the end of like 15min everything started to look the same!
imagine this: banquet goblets, multi-purpose goblets, vip goblets, vip white wine glass, vip red wine glass, muslim goblet, alcoholic port sherry glass and non-alcoholic port sherry glass ..OMFG! it was hell i tell ya!

anyways...because i stayed back and worked for 16 hrs..my trainer is giving me 2 off days to compensate..good right? well i don't know..it was damn tiring...i reached home at around 2:45am and i showered for 1 hr and sat in front of the TV for like 2 hrs just stoning there like an idiot smoking and de-stressing with a beer.

i swear if it wasn't for the off-day i wouldn't have gone...at the end of the night i'm kind of glad i went cuz i met some new friends and i get 2 days off...but the after shocks of the loading and unloading is really killing me right now; sore back, sore groan (from squatting too much) and my two big toes feel numb (lol)!

imagine ur pack of cigs ending up like this...





that's what happened at the end of the day...IN MY FUCKING POCKET...luckily it didn't ruin any smokes...i would have suffered...i smoked the whole pack in 1 day and i opened a new one when i reached home...as u can see...i was STRESSED OUT! lol!

there's another Safti coming on the 16th of June..should i go and get 2 more off-days, making it 4 in total? haha...post comments..thx! see ya..take care...i know it's quite a long post.